August 25, 2004

  • Everything that has a beginning has an end.
    Alas, now i know where I stand.
    To walk away, and to leave is dire and painful,
    Even more so to be there by your side, but unable to hold you.
    Perhaps it’s better for me to show you who I am as a friend,
    But it’s different for me to treat you as that, to pretend.
    Having much thought I am still clueless and lost,
    Lost in an endless ocean of you and you.


    I actually decided to end this today and forget all the things I said,

    It was supposed to end by me being no more than just a dear friend.

    To take away the sweet things and hopes and dreams.
    People tell me to press on and wait,
    Some say “jiayou” and let nature take its course,
    Some console by saying there’s always a chance…
    Some told me to make things clear to talk it through.
    But I have made a final conclusion that shall end all that.

    Today my day in school was robbed with emotion.
    Today I could not think because it’s all filled with you.
    Today I smiled, only to hide a forbidden truth.
    And today I remembered what I started with – with you.
    Maybe the recommended solution is to forget my dream,
    To succumb to your wishes, to be another friend.

    Yes I’ll be your friend, perhaps a dear one too…
    To reveal someday my true self, the kept secret to you.
    But whilst it may be easy to say and compelling to do,
    I’ve never actually told anyone if I actually loved you.
    Maybe it doesn’t matter or is redundant anyway,
    But hear me all who reads this.. on what I have to say.



    I can change the way I talk to you,

    I can stop giving you things and sweet messages too.

    I can even be your friend and even stop liking you.

    But there’s nothing you or I can do,

     To stop me from loving you..

    Vanessa, Christina, Shamantha, Kelly, Shumei and Frances
    The Six Lights illuminated in my eyes…
    To erase the liking for one of the six,
    Is to allow darkness to cover her light again.
    No more is the 6th light illuminated,
    but covered entirely with Darkness to hide..
    To hide what attracts me the most…
    The Illuminated Light…

    Strangely but not surprisingly,
    God sent me another light at my darkest times.
    I’ve been searching for her for weeks…
    And only when one fallen light turns to darkness,
    Did she appear again with her smile.
    I’ve finally found you… the Adnama Light.


August 24, 2004

  • “Isn’t it Beautiful?
    To see you smile through that door,
    To be close enough to feel your warmth,
    And to be shower you my undying will…
    Yet in return I almost never get to be with you alone,
    To say and share my story with you in another world.
    Sadness runs through my veins whenever I recall,
    But almost immediately sends me flying away whenver I see you again.
    To wait endlessly for a time of paradise…
    To wait in uncertainty and doubtful chaos…
    Only made worthwhile because it is you.

    As my songs in my heart cry a falling tear,
    Only the hopes in my dreams can remove those fears.
    The rain moves slowly across me as time takes a toll,
    A dream may have faded away revealing another sad song.
    A journey of unrest and quiet tears,
    begins and ends only to begin again…
    For you I can do only eveything,
    Yet for you I may have done nothing.
    If God may let me be,
    My Final Fantasy shall be all but complete in due time.
    Because of you and your smile,
    Isn’t it Beautiful?”

    So many things had been happening lately.
    Seems that life’s getting more interesting and all…
    No longer peaceful and monotonous,
    But enriching as everyday goes by…
    The experiences I had, the memories I held,
    They come back to me all the time….
    From the candles in the wind, under the night sky of stars…
    To the simple smile you gave when I said “I do this for you”

    After that day at the bash, I came to learn some truths…
    That is, I’m not the only one with emotional problems.
    But unlike them I take it in a different view..
    Some want to hold on the past never letting go…
    Some are afraid to discover and explore…
    Some are waiting for answers to appear…
    Some are angry because of situations…
    When I look at myself, I can’t seem to find any expression.
    I don’t know to feel satisfied or distraught.
    I was amazed to find out that there are some who held me in high regard.
    Some expressed their utmost respect and admiration,
    yet i feel I’m just the same as any other..
    Torn between what I should fight for, and what I want for.

    Oh well, anyway life in NUS was meant to be a challenge.
    For those who are running for elections, a heavy truth unfolds..
    And that is – It shall not be an easy road.
    As for me, already slowly feeling ostracised because of Bizcom,
    I know where my limits are.
    I know I cannot committ as much as the seniors in SCMC,
    and thus i can only assist in the Sub-com.
    Seems like many things are unfolding too fast…
    and as the week goes by, i can only be strong..
    If not, stronger. mwahahha…

    My new room in Prince George Park.. hee


    That’s my pillows! Got many of them. The flowery bed sheets were given by my mum.

    That’s my arsenal of snacks…. already half gone by the time i typed this..

    That’s the mystery girl of my poems.. and song. hee

    That’s my room… looks empty? but it’s what i need

August 19, 2004

  • “My feet were blistering I couldn’t run.
    Yet when I saw you running, I felt ashamed.
    For your sake I gave you my stand,
    Only to quietly endure the pain as I walked.
    I turned to you and saw your smile,
    I realised I should be smiling too.
    I ran and played like I felt no pain,
    Caring less for the blisters and burns.
    I turned to toss the ball into your hands,
    To please myself as I watched you smile once again”

    Today was a wierd day.
    I felt like soo many things were happening at the same time.
    But in the end, the past 2 days had been swell for me.
    Had the nicest chats with the people dear to me.
    There’s Kelly, someone who plays an important role in my life.
    Bumped into Vanessa, the girl I composed “December Night” for.
    Then there’s Jess, someone who knows almost all of me whom i met at PGP.
    And of course there’s the girl who I mentioned about above
    These days had been great!
    Most importantly, I started the week by talking to someone who i rarely see,
    And that made me smile even as i sleep i’m sure

    Now I’m squeezing my creative juices for the Union Bash at Sept.
    Have loads of lovely designs in my head, wonder how to carry them out.
    Hope the Sub Com can help out a little for the publicity.
    Things are going to get tiring for me these few days.
    But working with the friends i know, I think my experience in Bizcom will help.
    Since I’ll be assisting the Science club in their Business projects too

    Just went to play I-sports at the SRC
    Played captains ball there barefooted since i had no shoes.
    And now I’ve got 2 huge blisters, burning feet and an injured stomach.
    I was standing in front of the opponent and he jumped to catch the ball while extending his leg…
    Which slammed into my gut.
    I felt breathless for a moment, used my mouth to breathe..
    but there was pain. Quite painful too… ugh.
    So i left the SRC hurt almost everywhere..
    Bet  I’ll be limping around NUS this week. hahaha..
    but surprisingly, it’s because of this that I ended up smiling and happy.
    As to why I’m happy? Let the imagination unfold!
    As for the memory sake, I will leave a coded message for myself to decipher.

     5-12    1-10-14
    7-3-4-6-8      13-2
    11-15-9
    CC: For Sane’s Er nnc

    Break the code… mwahahha  besides this code are other pictures during scamp and Rag!
    These shall be my dear memories


    Wassup and Duper combines to form WassupDuper! haha cool

    The 2 guardians of our Orientation Group Flags for SCAMP 04

    Cheering is silly to some, but it’s here that it unifies…

    My Guard stole the limelight, so as a Prince I punched him.

    haha that’ll probably be the last time I’ll wear that outfit CLEAN. hahaha..
    but it was good, The Prince of Solaria shall remember that faithful day.

    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side Another Story>

    “Simple and clean is the way that you made me feel that night. It’s hard to let it go..”

    Sometime I wish I can just hold her hand… to tell her “I’ll be here waiting for you..”

August 7, 2004

  • “The Prince of Solaria is no more.
    For as the sands of time expire, the final Dance concludes.
    For five minutes of concentration, I was taken into another world,
    A world of fairies, guards, evil warriors and my princess.
    It was at that moment, I felt like a prince.
    And though it ended I felt like I’ve won.
    Though I can never be a prince again, I will remember every moment I had.
    I shall recall the pains taken, the participation and the dedication of everyone.
    Most of all I shall remember the cheers we had and the tears of joy.
    I already forgotten the tears of disappointment,
    because I felt that the effort that everyone put in made it feel like we’ve won.
    What’s more important is the bonds we made and the experiences we had…
    And as a dancer in the team all that has happened is worth that final show.
    Though I’m a Prince no more, the Dance we danced will be forever!”

    At the end of Rag Dance,
    I had mixed feelings… I felt that it’s alright the Judges didn’t think we’d win,
    and that as long as we did our best, I think it was a good win.
    however when I saw the Science club member sobbing away as they spoke,
    I saw 3 siginificant men breaking down as they spoke..
    I couldn’t help but cry along. I didn’t cry because we didn’t win..
    But rather because after all that everyone’s gone through…
    all the costume adjustments, Dance choreohgraphy, float presentations done…
    Everyone was down in their spirits and disappointed.
    Remembering how we cheered after the performance wasn’t a cheer of disappointment.
    It was a cheer of championship and appreciation of the effort everyone put in.
    The big picture isn’t about winning…
    it’s about smiling and being satisfied at the things we’ve done.
    If we’d won I’d expected it,
    but i’d rather we remembered this year’s Rag as an effort well done.


    Can u see me? brought me suit back.. will keep it always

    The phoenix Ravon! with the Whole Rag team!

                                                                                                                                            

    This morning I read a message on friendster from someone.
    And it left me surprised and rather disappointed too.
    Disappointed because i didn’t know that things could have happened better.
    Or rather because i didn’t know about some things.
    Wherever you are, I’ll always support you ya?
    We’ve gotta catch up soon. There are so many things to say and all..
    Yet in the midst of all these things, I must make certain decisions.
    many people had come into my life recently,
    most of which made a difference to me…
    And it’s not fair that I don’t make any choices…

                                                                                                                                            

    Now let me declare next year’s most anticipated game..
    Final Fantasy XII. If any of you had seen the Tokyo Game’s Fair trailer,
    You’d agree that this time FF XII shall be epic and big!
    Almost LOTR style, this game pushes the PS2′s capabilities to the brim.
    Redifiining the latest in graphical advancement.
    Next up is Kingdom Hearts II.
    After just finishing KH, I feel like the story’s just begginging to unfold.
    It’s rather interesting with the theme of Darkness within everyone..
    And of course about the good and light of the world.
    Sighz, once school starts, I’ll probably be away from all these game stuff.
                                                                                                                                            

    And after all the body paint, the hair-dos and make up..

     I’d like to thank everyone for their effort and enthusiasm for Rag!

    Rag became such a memory because of pple like you guys.

    Will never forget…
    The broken toe incident, the one hand cartwheels, the back flips,
    the first dance session with the percuassion thingie, the lame jokes we
    had, the piano i played, Crazy stretch stunts the dance pple did, the
    vertical lifts and carrys we had to master, flinging the capes so hard
    the weights came off, getting whirled up in purple cloth till my
    waistline got smaller, the bus trips I had with Charles and Valerie,
    getting sweet concern from the costume team, having my hair pulled by
    Althea, being fed food and drinks because my hands are Bronzed, the
    explosive song Explosive, running around the dance studio many times,
    watching Pamela and Nicole doing the baddies roles, staying in PGP
    because Dance Prac ended at 11, Learning how to walk, stand and move
    like a Prince, watching Peter do crazy stuff, watching Geraldine sewing
    a hp pouch, helping Frances look for her missing pendant, discovering
    the Shumie crosses the road without looking when she smses, realising
    that Carol lives so near me…


    And from all these, bringing to me someone very special, the girl who smiles at me =)


July 29, 2004

  • “When time is abundant there is so much that can be done.
    Alas when there’s too much to be done, there is little time.
    Left with experience and unity through participation,
    what’s left is nothing less than simple satisfaction.
    The Past we inherit the Present we create,
    The future’s worth going when God guides the way “

    So many things had happened recently!
    And I’ve been so busy with sooo many things.
    From supposedly performing promotional showcases for Kbox at NTU,
    to doing Rag Dance, all the way to studying for my Jap term exam..
    There’s even Matriculation, and module bidding and planning too.
    Basically, NUS life really does cover a huge load of time.
    Decided to stay in PGP too, and very soon,
    i’d probably be using my laptop in my very own place..

    But like everything else there are always the rewards.
    Guess the best thing about being in the Science Camp and Union Camp,
    is that i’ve made many new friends from many other faculties.
    Across the faculty, i’ve grown to understand the Student Union better,
    Made new friends (and pet friends) and realised that the community in NUS is huge.
    Science camp really gave me enriching and fulfilling experiences too..
    Grown closer to my OG friends, the pple who’ve made a difference to me.
    Haiz, i can go on and on, but the real reward is the friendships i’ve made.

    I lost track of what i’ve been doing so far,
    but very soon all that’s going to change.
    Chances are I’ll be in my own room in PGP,
    Doing tutorials, strumming my trusty Guitar and on my laptop most of the time.
    Wanted to bring the PS2 to S-video out to the lappie..
    but until i actually get my lappie, all that’s just a thought. hehe..
    Alas, although i’ve made new friends, been kept busy and almost at NUS everyday,
    I’ve lost track with some of my closer and recent friends.
    Used to meet Kelly at least once a week for dinner, but now…
    I’m sure i’ll try to arrange something soon but there are so many things to do.
    Then there’s my church friends, Liya… gosh where’s she?
    Everytime i go for 3rd service she goes for 2nd and vice versa.
    I’ve gotta make time for my other good pals too…
    With Freshman orientation week next week, and Rag practice,
    I doubt i’ll have the time. But i do hope that i can finish up the things i’ve set out to do.

    They say a picture says a thousand words..
    So here’s a depiction of what’s been going on for moi.


    After the Union camp, a united !nSANE went for lunch… only to
    realise the other OGs did the same. haha… and after a tiring few days
    at KR hall, everyone treated themselves to a srumpcious meal and
    chilling drink!
    Well done OGLs.. and thanks NUSSU. hehe..

    Starlight movie credits.. our Science camp OG wassup-duper watched the
    Day after tomorrow at Fort Canning Park. It was a different experience!
    And it was a rather romantic and cosy place too. What a memory…

    Sheena’s birthday surprise and party… went to K-box to celebrate and
    sing. hehe… It’s been a long time since I’ve sung. And because of
    this I’ve found a new performance song i can sing to! “The Moment”
    kinda depicts me sometimes.. can pretty much relate. hehe.. That was
    our most recent Science OG outing!

    That’s Jebsen. Someone i knew in my fac in JC, and someone I’ve learnt
    to know more about. He’s quite a dude too. haha.. Last Sunday Jeb,
    Paul, Pam, Sarah and I went to Newton Circus area to play basketball at
    the Community Centre nearby. It was rather fun when we were playing
    amongst ourselves, that’s until the atmosphere got tense as we were
    forced to compete against other groups in basketball. All in all,
    Pamela learnt a few things, and so did Sarah and later we went to have
    supper with Johan at newton circus. And soon after, we left Johan
    whilst he was supporting his friend’s band, to head to coffee bean to
    chill and chat. That’s where we got to know each other much better
    too.. dark secrets came to light and behold… the next pic depicts
    Pamela’s undying craving for warm chocolate brownies!

    lol.. Pamela’s my pissing buddy, hate-to-read-newspaper buddy,
    chocolate buddy, basketball buddy, and i think more buddy-ly things
    common between us. hehe.. Quite cool to know these gems. Always never
    regretted knowing them.

    Well aside from all these happenings,
    there had been some emotional conflict going around within me too.
    Stuff’s been happening and quite expectedly too.
    Sometimes somethings are meant to happen a certain way ya?
    and it has to go in a certain direction before anything else can materialise.
    During excessive Rag practice I’ve gotten to know the pple involved better as well.
    Especially someone I’ve been wanting to know more about since….hehe
    But whatever it is, I’m thankful for certain events that had happened,
    for the benefit of everyone around me…

    I have a hunch that somethings are about to change.
    Maybe I’ll become a committee person, or a nerd.
    Or maybe I’ll start to actually miss my ferocious mum.
    Maybe all these things will make me a better person.
    Maybe I’ll even fall in love again…



July 12, 2004

  • “Beyond time lies a dark face,
    hidden in anxiety beyond truth’s embrace.
    Testing waters for so long a time,
    Unable to endure speaks an angered mind.

    Not for vengeance nor for hatred,
    but for the right for truth to be deployed,
    Revealation lends a hand to reform.
    Honesty and advice miswritten to curse,
    Returns to one’s limit awaiting to burst.

    Care, concern, support and love…
    designed to conceal true feelings above.
    Somethings happened too fast too true,
    Pointless is to mention or discuss about you.”

    The Union camp had finally come to past..
    And many stuff had happened so fast..
    Ugh, i’m glued to speaking in riddles and rhyme..
    Can’t get this habit off in time!


    That’s !nSANE. Everyone was wearing Orange to colour code our group..

    Our group has 26 freshmen! sooo many!
    Which makes it even more difficult to bond with everyone in the group.
    Good thing was, everyone seemed to have their share of fun.
    I must admit though, that if Union camp was the first camp i attended,
    I’d think it rocks..
    but unfortunately after Science camp, i expected Union to be much better.
    I’m not saying it’s lousy it’s great! but the programme was predictable.

    On day 2, we went on the Fright night…
    It was quite eerie to know that even at NUS,
    there were many abandoned places and houses at old Kent ridge road.
    haha, while everyone went on in pairs, I was assigned to go ALONE.
    it was fun though cause it added to the creepy atmoshpere.
    And on the next day is was onward to Sentosa to have beach games and the amazing race.
    All of which pretty predictable.
    The only difference was the war games segment.
    I didn’t expect to get THAT dirty! Mud, oil, tartar sauce, vinegar.. gosh.
    The list goes on and on… haha but it was fun.
    Esp the traditional pyramid thing where we’d form a human pyramid
     to reach the top of a slope.
    and being at the base was definitely no easy task..

    Then just before we were prepared to meet our Secret Pal,
    we were all ready to gear up for the bash at Music Underground!


    That’s Yanxing, Jebsen, Jamie, Junming, Paul, Rongren at the background and Shouye

    Aww these Angels.. That’s Celine (my mortal), Jasmine and Pamela!!! haha

    That’s Vanessa, Shujun and Sze yi! hehe

    My Secret Pal’s a nice girl.
    Seemingly quiet and shy, she’s actually rather fine i think.
    At least we had decent conversation..
    and she was really supportive when i was on stage for the pageant.
    haha it was quite a nice night. Didn’t like the music though…
    so i left earlier… only to realise… that half of my OG stopped dancing!
    We then later went on the Mos burger to chat. heh


    That’s John and Shouye, along with so many others… hahaha

    I would have thought that the night was the end of the camp.
    But the next morning… we carried on till late evening!
    Man we didn’t even sleep for the bash night.
    Which explains why i slept for 15 hours when i got home.


    There’s Xu zhi, shujun and Vanessa.. heh. Break camp time.

    But we aren’t going home just yet! hahaha

    we went to play Pool… then

    Then we raced it out on the wheels..

    And Jerry… no one could’ve guessed we was a natural at skateboarding. heh

    In the end, the camp ended off rather fine.
    With new bonds of friendship formed..
    and a whole new array of experience and fun.
    I’ll never forget building sandcastles on the beach,
    singing songs in the rain,
    Stoning early in the morning,
    winning the most sporting OG award,
    Seeing Sin Chang’s tears welling up..
    Getting colgate smeared at my butt crack..
    Jumping in the sea because i lost a bet…
    And most of all, seeing the fighting spirit and zeal when i saw !nSANE cheer.
    There are somethings that money can’t buy.
    My experience in !nSANE at the Union camp is one of them

July 3, 2004

  • I’m just an ORDinary CIVILIAN…


    “Time moves so fast,
    Bringing about so much changes.
    Life’s been great being so busy when you’re more free.
    Yet, things can get really confusing when there is change.
    Behind the laughter, smiles and joy..
    Lies a creepy disturbance that shall stir another storm.
    Something tells me that…
    A new challenge is coming my way.
    And as long as there is a single breath in me,
    As long as my Father in Heaven watches over me,
    I shall never fall”

    Science camp ended not too long ago,
    but like everything else some things were not meant to end so quickly.
    The unity of our OG grows with each outing we hold.
    It unifies and strengthens with each joint effort we give.
    And so, the most of us attended the 1 day Rag camp..


    The shirt’s awesome too… reminds me of a Dragon..

    And that’s the Mascott. Our own Firey Phoenix. Cool…

    Using Starch to make replicate a picture as part of an ice breaker game..

    It was great to see everyone together again..
    this time participating in Rag and Flag day…
    And we’re all going to join Dance for rag!
    Sounds wierd, but i think it’ll be great fun. heh


    And that’s the costumes we’ll be wearing! hehe.. the Bad guy costume looks cool

    Saw last year’s Rag dance thingie on the laptop too.
    Think it’s really awesome.
    It’s kinda different from Mass dance and all,
    more about teamwork and creativity.
    Well whatever it is, it left an impression on me.
    Only to motivate and drive 5 freshmen guys to join the Rag Dance. haha
    But we’re really eager to try to play the Bad guys..
    The costumes so cool! haha…


    There’s Timothy posing for the camera. Looks cool..

    We stayed overnight at Science fac at LT 23.
    Gosh it was freaking cold for a while..
    Ended up chatting, playing UNO, the pig heart attack game..
    haha and all kinds of stuff.
    In the end, I drove Alex and Tim to PGP to get WS’s guitar to play…
    And so while we waited for the match btw Porturgal and and.. *i forgot*
    I just played the Guitar like no one’s business. hahaha..
    i even continued playing while i was almost asleep!
    My fingers seem to have their own mind.
    But it was really great fun that day.
    Timothy was just as cartoon, Benny just played Frisbee with ???, Charles was blurly,
    JJ was playing cards along with the rest, and everybody had their share of fun.


    That’s everyone eating while playing cards.. Valerie Tim and dA-ling..

    That’s Valerie and Wei Sheun.
    Valerie’s no simple girl. And definitely more than just what she seems..
     it’s rather rare to find someone who can relate and understand me.
     Valerie’s someone like that, and i’m really grateful to have her around


    And the following day I had to come back to NUS YIH,
    to make the Union camp’s mascott for our OG !nSANE.
    Well, at least some people turned up to help out..
    Got to know new friends and people again.


    That’s our mascott.. well partially complete actually. haha.. !nSANE eh?

    Our “Hands” to show our !nSANE spirit? hehe..

    Then just yesterday we got to meet our Cheorographer for our dance thingie.
    It was fun learning the piak piak thingie. haha whatever it’s called.
    And after hanging around NUS for a while we were supposed to have an OG outing!
    Alas, i was the only freshman together with WS, Kat, Val and later No.3 and Shuhui


    This is last year’s Flag bear.. i think. hehe

    The science Club room. NOT for the faint hearted..

    Watched Spider man 2 with Valerie.
    It was very beautifully done.
    I mean the show was really action-packed, thrilling, exciting and even romantic.
    It’s a real twist of how events had formed and all..
    and after the show, had the nicest and almost magical time in a long time
    Like what Valerie describes as…
     w0nderfu| p|ace, w0nderfu| nite.. h0w i wish time c0u|d c0me t0 a standsti||


June 26, 2004

  • “As I took my bags and prepared to say goodbye..
    I felt a plunging sense of sadness because i know I’ll miss them.
    But I put on a smile as I waved my hands saying..
    “This is not the end. It’s only the beginning”
    It was here at the NUS Science Camp that new bonds were forged.
    Where new relationships and experiences were made.
    It is by far one of the Best camps i ever had,
    Simply because it had the greatest people in it “

    As i entered LT31 it was no encouragement to realise that my OG had just 3 guys.
    “Perhaps the girls will be coming soon?
    There’s my friend Adeline who’s supposed to come?”
    Man i was wrong..
    apparently she decided not to come and my OG consisted of 3 freshies.
    But there were many seniors around though..

    And through time, we got used to each other, combining events with our buddy OG
    Forming a new OG called Wassup Dupers!
    It’s a wierd name, but the OG packs a punch!
    The first day we went to Sentosa to prepare for fright night.
    It was a great idea to put it on the first day of the camp.
    Unifies the OG by… scaring people?? hahaha



    Here’s some of my seniors and OGLs! That’s lingling, Eunice, Jane.. Ian and Alex


    and the guys from my OG, Benny, Timothy, Junji and Charles.
     That’s Peng Tat on the right.. aka “No.3″

    and that’s Ling and Keling! hehe..

    Fright night was awesome.
    The acting was great, the make up almost realistic… and the setting.
    What better way to walk through dark corridors than in abandoned houses in sentosa?
    If i were a girl, i’d probably be just as freaked out.
    I’ve seen girls running out of the houses, screaming..
    girls getting traumatised and even guys coming out blurred and mind boggled.
    The scary thing is…
    how can we tell if some of the things we see were not meant to be there? ……..
    But in the end, I got my hands covered with thick blood,
    got my hair up on all ends..
    and got to see Charles freak out
     when a woman appeared right at the door as we made our exit.. haha

    Next morning was beach games…
    And i had a great time enjoying the sun sand sea and the ice cream. heh
    We splashed, had abrasions, sunburned and whatever..
    and it was all good i tell ya. Tired, aching but good.
    I lost my precious ring while bathing too.
    It fell into the drain while i was bathing
    and i just stared into the deep darkness
     wondering why of all places it dropped it dropped there..

    But the night ended with something spectacular.
    Ever fancied sleeping under the fishes?
    Our whole camp slept at underwater world..
    pity the tunnel was already crowded with the early birds..
    but we had a spot next to the sea turtles! it was beautiful…
    and freezing icy too..
    and in the morning, i said hi to mr Turtle. heh

    The next few days were held at NUS raffles Hall.
    Gosh the events they held were definitely appealing.
    On the second day the highlight was this game “Who killed Andrea”
    It was like cluedo, but with a major makeover with a touch of gaming magic.
    As a team we were to get clues to reveal who, when and what killed andrea.
    The team was split into 3 parts, one to make “money” to buy the clues.
    the other went to search for light sticks,
     to free prisoners and obtain immunity from the “Devils and Policemen”
    And the remaining team went to challenge the “Fortune teller” for clues.
    I was on the team making the “money”, so we had to visit the “Casino”
    But in the end i got caught by the “Devil” *stupid Gina* and sent to the jail,
    where i had the do push-ups, sit-ups and toilet squats
     to show my OG how tormented i am. haha… in the end they bought me back.
    The game was hectic, chaotic, witty and challenging.
    But it was really great fun just playing it. Enjoyed myself alot!

    The highlight for the 3rd day was the Inter-fac games.
    Where i screamed my lungs out and cheered like no one was looking at me.
    It was really nice to see all my friends from the other faculties too.
    There was my best friend Paul, Brandon, James, Charles.. some girls too.
    but i forgotten their names. haha…
    Another thing though,
     seems that the Science camp committee members were mostly from ACJC.
    so i know them someway or another.
    That explains why they knew my name the first time i saw them. haha..
    Later in the evening we had talentnight!
    And instead of just making some song to impress the pple,
    We Freshmen of Wassup Duper decided to make a skit to show our
    appreciation to our seniors and OGLS alike. A shared effort for a Joint
    purpose…
    To say a hearty thank you to all of you…

    And on the final day, we finally got to meet our SP
    Our secret pal..
    In the past few days, I was blindfolded and found myself
    chatting with someone i never knew and never seen who’s from another OG.
    The good thing though is that we shared something in common..
    Singing!
    And on the final day of revelation. we had to dress up before meeting the girl.


    Our babes. Hot stuff…
    There’s “Xiao ling”, “Da-ling”, Sheena, Shuhui, Eunice, Valerie and Catherine.
    Hmmm where was Joanne and Jane? haha

     i guessed the correct girl!
    Brought her to the piano area where i played a song for her too
    A lovely girl i’d say, Xiu Juan… so lovely sweet and demure.
    Fair and pretty, soft spoken and gentle. Wow. haha..
    Anyway, later that night the whole camp went to Chinablack!
    And we were all ready and prepared to dance like mad!
    The theme was PINK!, but unfortunately i didn’t have pink shirts with me..
    Some of our seniors had them though.. haha


    Haha, no prize for punching the right spot! That’s Benny and Junwei..

    The guys looking cool… heh
     That’s “The OGL”, “Elvis”,”Travolta” & “Austin powers” hehe

    And that’s Shuhui and Sheena. ain’t they pretty and pink? heh

    When we got to town, we had dinner at a Vietnamese place outside Fareast.
    The spring rolls were great! Nice food, great ambiance and locality to boot!
    Too bad it wasn’t big enough to house everyone at one time..


    Le Viat restaurant i believe… yeah that’s what it’s called.

    As as the night went on in Chinablack, we had breakdancers perform an item for us.
    Leaving most of us impressed and awed at the rhythmic dance moves.
    There was a catwalk too.. where pple strut off with cool designs and even bikini wear.
    Gosh and later i got arrowed to go up on stage to catwalk half naked!
    But it was all fun. Just for the laughs and stuff..
     and it was the last night i had with them

    but as i mentioned.. it’s only the beginning! mwahaha
    SCAMP 2004 Rocks real hard man!

    Will never forget the pple, the sweat, the sprained ankle, the
    tomatoes splurting against my face, the scissors paper stone games on
    the beach, frisby games, the ultra long and cool Mass dance, how i
    stood on top of the lecture table doing the Macerena, the “Chicken
    rice” cheer we do before we eat, or how i tried to bargain with Gina to
    let me off by trying to win her at scissors paper stones, the honey
    water our OGLs prepared for us, how some guys actually bathed
    themselves at the leg wash area when no girls were looking, or being
    mistakenly water bombed by someone at the field, or how Mona Lisa
    actually tried to seduce Tim, watching Sharon get thrown onto the soap
    wrestling area, squeezing 150+ pple into a small radius of rope, or
    hearing the whole camp screaming LIVE on Power98.

    There are too many memories to actually remember.
    Yet i shall not forget any of them.
    to Alex, Eunice, Jane, Lingling, Joanne, Junwei, Weisheun, Benny,
    Charles, Valerie, Shuhui, Sheena, Ian, Peng Tat, Keling, Lingling,
    Timothy, Junji…

    THANK YOU FOR MAKING WASSUP DUPER
     THE MOST ENTHUSIASTIC OG IN SCAMP 2004!

    *All picture were taken with the Nokia 6230. How cool’s that? heh*

June 19, 2004

  • “I had a beautiful night last night.
    But it leaves me confused sometimes.
    I feel overjoyed that somethings happened.
    Yet i feel sad that maybe there’s all that we can be.

    Good things are worth waiting for.
    This is one of them”

    Due to the nature of the real content,
    I cannot reveal details in regard to a pact i made.
    but it shall be recorded deeply in my memories.
    The past few days, or week had been great.
    I’ve been going out with the her over and over again.
    Never bored of her company, always pleased in her presence.
    It’s strange though… thinking back…
    Never expected it to get here. But i really don’t know if i can expect it to go further.

    I realised the real reason why i stopped blogging for a long time.
    It’s because i’ve stopped using my Digital Camera which i bring everywhere to.
    With my hp, i can take pictures wherever i go! But.. it cannot compare to the Dimage.
    Thus I shall resume using the awesome cool silver sleek camera.
    But here’s a few pictures i’ve taken long ago.
    All of it has a story to tell, a part to play, in my oh so busy life.


    The vocal finals for a.. vocal competition hosted by A square

    That’s me wondering “what does this button do?”

    Val and Arial. One’s a producer the other’s a writer. can’t tell right? haha

    My car… minutes before it was towed away.
    Apparently they said it wasn’t mine and i stole it. What nonsense!

    My jap classmate who doubted the capabilities of my 6230.

    Haiz, just yesterday i was supposed to attend the camp briefing for the science camp.
    I was earlier informed that the briefing was at 9am @ LT 27?
    But SOMEONE in the committee told me otherwise.
    “Are u sure it’s at 12pm? at LT23? I received a message from NUS that it’s 9am”
    “Yeah la, sabo u for what? see ya”
    And because of that I walked into LT23 at 12pm,
    getting wierd stares from all the OGLS and committee members of the camp.
    Strange thing is, i’ve never met them before and a few echoed my name..
    “Reuben! The briefing was at 9am!!!”

    I was flabergasted.

    But JANE said it was at 12pm??
    Ugh that girl. No i honestly doubt the management within the Science committee.
    Oh well, next week I’ll be off to NUS for the camp!
    There’ll be the sun at sentosa, wierd events, clubbing and even a talentnight!
    Sounds fun huh? Never been to someting like that in AGES.
    It’d be cool to meet new pple.
    But there’ll be someone i’d miss dearly too



June 17, 2004

  • “I dreamed of you again.
    That you took my hand and just rested in assurance.
    Dreamnt of the tranquility when you rested on my shoulder.
    I woke up halfway wondering if it’s real.
    I went back to dream knowing that It’s not…”

    I don’t understand.
    I’m clearing my leave now from ARMY,
    but I’m getting even MORE busy!!!
    My schedule’s packed to the core.. everyday there something major to do.
    Ugh, I’ve been so busy i’ve forgotten what’s happened in the past few weeks!
    From attending compeitions, observing new talents and watching singers perform,
    all the way to heading down to NUS to hand in my application for PGPR.
    But the nicer things go to the sudden change of plans i had to make,
    Just to meet “K”.
    Nope not that cool character from KOF, but a real person

    Well, in these few days, or was it weeks??
    I’ve grown to realise I don’t have much time left.
    I’ll be entering university soon and when that happens..
    There will be changes in my lifestyle.
    I’ve gotta make use of whatever time i have now,
    To complete whatever I had initially set out to do.
    So, behold world. Reuben’s on fire now. mwahahhaa.


    Check out my new hp. I LOVE IT.


    Awww ain’t she pretty.
     There are so many things I have to say..
    Things I have to do..

    Well yesterday was a nice day for me.

    In the blistering sun, I was watching the Finals for the vocal compeitions.

    Must thank John for reserving seats for me and Kelly tho.

    Kinda surprised to find another guy in my camp who’s in this industry too.

    But it was alright. Was busy sheltering the poor girl from the sun…

    whilst I burn, perspire and endure. haha.. my adidas metal watch became sooo hot,

    It made a mark on my skin! haha.

    Well it was awesome to spend a whole day with Kelly.

    Too bad i was a little tired, or I’d have tried something more exciting. heh.

    Well a brand new week’s ahead! God bless all of you!

    “I watch you sleeping on my lap,
    With my arm around you to give you warmth.
    I inched my thumb to feel your soft skin,
    and marvelled at how beautiful you look under the moonlight.
    Wonder if you’d box me if i actually kissed you.

    Then later with a moment of privacy,
    As i stand by your side looking at your eyes.
    My heart raced, as if I was faced with a new challenge.
    Felt like kissing you there and then,
    but when i see you smiling,
    I decided to refrain, only to let you keep that smile for the night.”