November 15, 2004

  • I walked to the centre of the field in NUS,

    Feeling the breeze against my hair…

    There I raised my White Wing high up into the air,

    And with one single stroke, I released it into its brilliant motion.

    What is it I hear?



    I heard the echoes of music reaching my ear as it spins,

    I heard the children laughing and playing.

    I heard the ruffles in the trees, and the sound of silence.

    Yet finally I hear the danger approaching before me.



    I’d used to run and duck away till it fell,

    To pick it up again and throw again.

    Yet today I was ready to take that step forward,

    To reach out to my Wing and retreive if as my own.

    Alas, the winds were strong and I wasn’t as fast…

    Eventually left to see, my White Wing fall to the Grass.



    Like all things, some things do not go as planned.

    Sometimes these things leave you to believe that there’s nothing more.

    Yet I believe that my God wants me to believe that,

    when you fall, you should still stand..

    Because you’ve gotta keep trying till the very End.






    One day…
     I know that I will be able to catch my Wing,
    Some day,

    I hope I’ll see the ones I love catch theirs too    “


    Finally all that’s left for me is to study!
    no more assignments and projects!
    But of all of these experiences, there’s one I treasure the most.
    Taking Japanese Studies (GEK 1002) made an impact on my life.
    If God didn’t place me there, I would not have experienced so many things.
    There I met a group of Angels..
    I shall name them “Paul’s Angels” cause Paul’s so nice to them????
    haha and perhaps if you combine these words u get, Pangels!
    Anyways, it was great to be in their company.
    We’ve been through tough times, and because of that I’ve made dear friends.
    Most importantly, through certain situations, I’ve come to see another light,
    One that spreads my sunshine, the brightest star of them all…


    Our project involves the exploration of LAN gaming in the library…

    Another day of “Jelly Beans” research.. haha. The girls are soooo adorable!


     Starry said this is nice.. it’s made up of Rice! At Serangoon Gardens Country Club



    Man It doesn’t stop there!
    Through this Module I’ve fallen into bliss.
    Never thought that I’d feel this way again,
    But more importantly, I feel it in a more mature and sensible way.
    It isn’t that simple actually…
    It’s about being realistic, and practical and being true to your heart.
    More often than not, all these would clash and cause major judgemental errros.
    But here I am, all cool about it, knowing what i’m doing and trusting God.
    I think that’s how a relationship should be…
    Not just based on emotion and sudden surges of feelings..
    but rather based on mutual understanding, agreement, and realistic applications.

    I hope God can help me do what I have to do in her life    .
    That way, can we really level up together


    It’s almost like the picture above. hehe..

    Anyways on less serious stuff aside…
    I’ve made a few signs outside my door,
    So that my neighbours know when to knock and disturb me and when not to.
    hahaha.. cause sometimes I’m sleeping and they think I’m still up!
    can’t blame them though.. so I created these signs!


    The latest gaming trend to hit me, is Dota.
    Can’t believe that I converted to Warcraft III Based stratedgy games…
    I’ve always been a Counter-striker.
    alas, ever since I came into NUS, I’ve lost my touch in CS,
    LEaving me no choice but to succumb to the nightly games the scholars play in NUS LAN.
    But it’s quite fun actually! hahah using Heros to force a consistent force to the base.
    And strangely there are pple playing CS 1.5 here (An older version),
    and wierdly, I can’t play the latest version online in NUS!
    The latency’s ridiculously high! (1800+) when at home it’s just 15.
    Ugh…

    And now for even less serious stuff,
    That’s probably more redundent to pple who are not interested…
    Behold! New high resolution pictures and preview to the next CG movie!

    Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children!


    Such dull colours… haiz, it’s a sad story essentially.


    I forgot this character’s name.. ugh..


    Tifa! A girl who loves someone who loves someone else.. sigh


    who can forget Cid? The guys who flies the Airship “Highwind”


    The main character “Cloud Strife” and “Tifa Lockheart (I think)”…


    The Turks…


    Close up… aw… the girl looks pretty… reminds me of someone.


    Hmm his Sword looks rather different too. Nice hair eh? If i had this style…

    And aside from these new trailer pictures,
    There is..,

    Kingdom Hearts II    .
    This game is a collaberation between Japan’s top leading Role-Playing Game Producer, Square-Enix and Walt Disney.
    I thought it’ll be some childish game that’s just for kids
    (since there are disney characters in it too) and so I didn’t pay much attention to it.
    Until I had sooo much time in the Army that I decided to get it.
    And true enough Squaresoft did not let me down.

    The plot’s incredible, and the story line’s captivating…
    The cool thing is that it’s original, and you barely understand the whole pic,
    even when u finish the game.
    Like what the the scientist Ansem said…

    “One who knows nothing, can understand… Nothing.”


    I always thought no one can reproduce 2D cartoons into 3D and still keep the effect.


    There’s King Mickey! but it seems like he’s with the baddies.. hmm


    Isn’t it incredible? It’s a 3D game, but somehow u feel like u’re in the cartoon…


    Hercules reappears in KH2! After being defeated by Sora.. hah


    Looks like a Scene from the Lord of the Rings eh? hehe…


    And here’s something not many have access to,
    In Kingdom Hearts: Final Mix, here’s the missing reports translated to English…
    Not available in Singapore or the US, this is the missing link between
    Kingdom Hearts and the secret trailer to Kingdom Hearts II.
    Actually I highly encourage those who can appreciate the arts, to play this game.
    Cause it makes simple things like darkness and light become so interestingly intridging,
    Here are all the reports of Ansem ( A scientist in the game)
    that a player would slowly discover as he progresses in the game…,

    The 13 Ansem Reports
     

    Report 1

    Much of my life has been dedicated to pursuit of knowledge. That
    knowledge has guarded this world well.
    Not a soul doubts that. I am
    blessed with people’s smiles and respect.

    But though I am called a sage, there are things I do not understand. I
    believe darkness sleeps in every heart, no matter how pure. Given
    the chance, the smallest drop can spread and swallow the heart. I have
    witnessed it many times.

    Darkness…

    Darkness of the heart.

    How is it born? How does it come to affect us so? As ruler of this world, I must find the answers.

    I must find them before the world is lost to those taken by the darkness.



    Report 2


    It is my duty to expose what this darkness really is.


    I shall conduct the following experiments.


    Extract the darkness from a person’s heart. Cultivate darkness in a pure heart. Both suppress and amplify the darkness within.


    The experiments caused the test subjects’ hearts to collapse, including the most stalwart. How fragile our hearts are!


    My treatment produced no signs of recovery.


    I confined those who had completely lost their hearts beneath the castle.


    Some time later, I went below and was greeted by the strangest sight.


    Creatures that seemed to be born of darkness…


    What are they? Are they truly sentient beings? Could they be the shadows of those who lost their hearts in my experiments?


    Report 3

    The shadows that crawl beneath the castle… Are they the people who
    lost their hearts, or incarnations of darkness? Or something
    entirely beyond my imagination?

    All my knowledge has provided no answer. One thing I am sure of is that
    they are entirely devoid of emotion. Perhaps further study will
    unlock the mysteries of the heart. Fortunately, there is no shortage of
    test samples.

    They are multiplying underground even as I write this report. They still need a name.

    Those who lack hearts… I will call them the Heartless.



    Report 4



    The Heartless appear in groups, and are multiplying rapidly. I’ve
    provided them both living and nonliving samples. They’ve responded
    only to the living. They seem to multiply after absorbing something
    from the living creatures. Their prey vanishes without a trace.


    I believe the Heartless are taking hearts. They are born from those
    who’ve lost their hearts, and thrive on hearts seized from others.
    The hearts taken by the heartless become Heartless themselves.


    Though I lack proof, I am confident in this hypothesis. I must also study their behavioral principles.


    Though they lack emotions, they do seem to have some intelligence. How to communicate with them?


    It’s just occurred to me: Could they be the darkness in people’s hearts?


    Report 5

    To study the Heartless behavior, I picked one out for observation. It
    wiggled its antennae and, as if sensing a target, headed deep into
    the castle.

    In the deepest part of the castle, its antennae began vibrating, as if
    searching for something. Suddenly, a strange door appeared.
    I’d never known of its existence.

    It had a large keyhole, but didn’t seem to be locked. So I opened the door.

    What I saw on the other side mystified me.

    What was that powerful mass of energy. That night I observed a great meteor shower in the sky.

    Could it be related to the door that I have opened?

    Report 6



    A massive core of energy lay beyond the door sought by the Heartless.
    It may be the ultimate goal of the Heartless. But what is that
    energy? I have devised a hypothesis, based upon my observations of the
    Heartless.


    The Heartless feed on other’s hearts, and they yearn for that energy
    core. That thing beyond the door must be a heart, too–the heart of
    this world. There is no proof, but, having felt that immense energy, I
    am certain. That was the heart of the world.


    The Heartless are trying to take hearts not only from all living
    creatures, but from the planet itself. But what do they mean to do with
    the heart of the world?


    Report 7

    I am studying material from the meteors that rained down that
    fateful night. What a find! The material is foreign to our world. It is
    elastic to the touch, and when two pieces are combined, they bond
    easily.

    None of the records even mention such a substance. Was it introduced to
    this world when I opened the door? I wonder how many other such
    materials drift through the atmosphere of this tiny world… I wish I
    could soar off and find out!

    Could there be uncharted worlds up there? My curiosity never ceases to
    grow. But I should stop speaking of such unrealistic dreams. For
    now, there is no way to venture outside this world. My people and I are
    all but prisoners of this tiny place.

    Report 8


    There is no doubt that the Heartless are deeply connected to
    the people’s hearts. Further study may unravel both their motivations
    and
    the mysteries shrouding the heart. As a start, I have built a device
    that artificially creates Heartless.


    By recreating the conditions that spawn the Heartless naturally, I
    should be able to produce them artificially. This device is the
    culmination of all my research thus far. The machine’s test run
    successfully created a Heartless. This may be a step toward creating a
    heart from nothing.


    The artificially and naturally created Heartless showed nearly
    identical traits. But the two types remain distinct for the purpose of
    the experiment. So, I will mark the ones that are created artificially.


    Report 9

    Simply astonishing! Today I had a guest from another world. He
    is a king, and his vessel is built of the material that composed the
    meteors. He called the pieces “gummi blocks.” It seemed that my opening
    the door has opened a path to interworld travel.

    We talked for countless hours, but one story in particular caught my
    interest: that of a key called the “Keyblade.” The Keyblade is said
    to hold phenomenal power. One legend says its wielder saved the world,
    while another says that he wrought chaos and ruin upon it.

    I must know what this Keyblade is. A key opens doors. It must be connected to the door I have opened.

    Report 10



    Just as people have hearts, so do worlds. The same can be said of stars
    in the night sky. And deep within each world lies a door to its
    heart. The Heartless desire those hearts. Born out of darkness in
    people’s hearts, they seek to return to a greater heart. Yes that’s it.
    The Heartless come from people’s hearts, as does the darkness.


    Is the core of the world’s heart the world of the Heartless? I will
    pursue the answer there and become all knowing. My path is set.
    I shall seek out the wielder of the Keyblade, and the princesses.


    My body is too frail for such a journey, but I most do this.


    I will cast it off and plunge into the depths of darkness.


    Report 11

    In opening the door that stores a world’s hearts, the wall around that world is broken down. We see this as a shooting star.
    Through this, I have been able to understand the reason why the material known as Gummi Blocks has the ability to allow travel
    to other worlds.

    The cause of a world’s wall collapsing is the appearance of the
    Heartless, but finding a world’s door takes time. And robbing a world
    of
    its heart is a similar case.

    If the door has been closed by the key known as the Keyblade, you
    probably cannot reach that world’s heart again. Before the one with
    the Keyblade appears in this world, I must take measures to do
    something.

    Supposing that there is a close relationship between the Princesses and
    the Keyblade, it seems likely that they will resonate with each
    other…

    I have chosen one special girl. I do not know if she possesses a power
    like that of the Princesses. But, there is a chance, and this is
    an experiment. She may lead me to the place where the one holding the
    key is…

    I shall send her off to the ocean of other worlds.

    Report 12


    I have transcended to an existence of only the heart. I should have come back as a Heartless, but there is no sign of such a
    transformation.


    My body has surely perished. However, I am different from the other
    Heartless, keeping the memories of before, and I have not taken on
    the form of a Heartless. It is clear that there are still many things
    to be studied.


    In order to cross over to the dark side, which is not this world, you
    must go beyond the door of Kingdom Hearts, the place connected to
    the world’s heart.


    The innermost part connected to the world’s heart, the place connecting
    to the world of darkness. (I will record the details in another
    report…)


    There are still so many unknown worlds.

    The present world.


    The world of darkness.


    The world of light.

    And,


    The world in-between.

    Where does the true paradise lie, I wonder?


    Report 13

    When the heart casts off the flesh, where does the body go?

    Heart and soul are separate, and the soul remains in the body. But can we assume that the leftover body and soul perish?

    Certainly when the heart changes into a Heartless the body disappears.

    However, that is only this world’s story; in another world, mightn’t they change forms like the Heartless and exist there?

    If we take that to be the case, there must be a you other than yourself existing somewhere.

    An existence neither of darkness nor of light.

    An in-between existence. Cast off by the heart, a mere shell, one who begrudges both the darkness and the light.

    This mystery cannot be easily resolved. The relationship between the heart and the flesh is a complex one.

    But since we exist here, they cannot be termed as existent.Therefore I shall call them…

    “The non-existent ones.


     
    Oh wells, that’s that…
    With the exams coming up next,
    There’s nothing left to do but study and study!
    Hope I’ll be able to pull this off.
    Must aim for the sky! beyond my limit is where I shall be satisfied!


    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story X>


    5th Hikari <Special> Hoshii no Hikari ~ Starlight
    God’s
    gift to me in the most perculiar way! Never thought I’d got to know you
    through NUS. Could have known you earlier a year back, but I think it
    wouldn’t be the same if it had turned out that way. Hey, be strong and
    stay strong ya? Challenges will keep coming your way, and It’ll be hard
    to get by. But don’t fear, cause the Lord’s with ya all the way. I can
    vouch for that… And he won’t let you have the 2nd best, he’ll give
    you the best! You just have to press on and trust him for now ya?
    Someday I know you’ll be able to catch your wings, and reach your
    goals. That’s the time for you to realise that it is true – That
    because you are a child of God, you shall be and always will be the
    brightest of them all.      The girl who spreads my
    sunshine – Starlight


    6th Hikari <Supreme> Saikou no Hikari ~ Zil
    My
    dear. It’s been a long time since I’ve used that word… but now I’m
    using it often because of you. Nothing can replace the satisfaction I
    have whenever you are near. It’s so pleasing to know that there’s
    someone like you in my life. Thanks for everything! But more
    importantly, don’t hesitate in whatever you do. Do be honest with me,
    and just tell me whatever you feel. Hope your gidiness is gone.. was
    kinda worried about you just now. Dear, I’m looking forward to what our
    future holds for us ya? For now, let us focus on our exams! after that,
    when the holidays come… that’s when the real romance shall commence.
    Mwahahaha… then you’ll go into full-time RW CCA mode. hehe…     My supreme light, the one who brings me joy -
    Zil

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October 26, 2004

  • “我は無敵なり

    我が影技に、かなう者なし。

    我が一撃は、無敵なり！

    我が名は、

    「ブレクーハゥリング」

    My fighting name was no more 2 years ago.
    Because of a turning point in my life, my new name is Illuminaire.
    Yet, secretly and unknowingly, I feel myself reverting to that guy 2 years ago.
    He had zeal, and even passion to find a more powerful opponent.
    And he had within him the endless fire to overcome anything that came his way.
    A few days ago, a starlight rekindled that fighting spirit in me,
    And now I have reason to Fight for one’s freedom & peace.
    This day, I’ll challenge myself to overcome the status of my enemy…
    Because I can’t just listen and pretend nothing’s happened.
    I shall be your sword to fight alongside with you,
    And this sword I give to you is called – Courage.

    Courage is not the absence of fear. Courage is acting in spite of fear.
    Fight on, and may all who fall under my wrath hear the Black Howling.”

    My my, how time has flown by…
    Sometimes I wish time could be a little slower, so that I can do more.
    Everything’s been swell!
    Few days ago, my parents went to Korea, and boy i had a good time with the car.
    I mean, I could drive to anywhere, meet friends here and there..
    It sounds kinda lame, but sometimes I drive to the science fac.
    But in the end, it was great to feel more… capable.
    And my darling dear!
    Thanks for being so encouraging all the time,
    You’re always so sweet.. always leaving my baffled and mesmorised.
    I have something to tell you though.. when the time comes I’ll show u.
    The greatest gift I can give you shall come your way in due time.
    For now, I’m having great loving moments with you!

    Isn’t it horrible to be in a predicament?
    Just a few days ago, I’ve learnt of some truths and stuff,
    And I felt so helpless because I couldn’t do anything.
    Felt helpless because I was weak and had no power yet.
    Wish I could do something… I need more knowledge.
    More importantly, I’ve gotta pray about it and tell God to do something.
    I realised what’s my worse feeling.
    The feeling of feeling helpless, simply because I’m just Reuben and no one else.
    But once I see that cross embedded in my heart,
    I know that I’m no longer just Reuben.
    I am a child of God, and by my side is his wings.
    To the person I’m talking about, Fight on, live hard and trust him.
    In the End, I promise you that you’ll look back at everything and smile.

    Paul’s 21st birthday!
    Man I wish I had more capacity to make it a bash for him.
    But this guy who I’ve been friends for 10 years..
    I know his style.
    Like me, we’re the sentintimentals.
    Something simple, can actually be sooo beautiful.
    And so, in the end the company he was with,
    And the fellowship we had,
    in my opinion made his birthday rather great.


    The man, wearing nothing inside but his adida sweater. Eek

    On his birthday, he had absolute power. Including the power to fry his hamster

    Clue: This place is in Hereen. Where is this?

    The man, his girls, the pigs… and the huge mess we made.

    Demonstrating good diaphragm control by explusion of air through his stomach

    Billy bombers! Cool name for cool food. Makes you bomb at the..

    Paul pissed on the sofa we were sitting on, so we had to jump to the back.


    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story IX>


    5th Hikari <Special> Hoshii no Hikari ~ Starlight
    Pple can say mean things when they’re angry.
    Some may even curse or swear. But within the heart lies through
    meaning, to whether all leads to hope or despair. Be not remorseful for
    the things that saddens you, but look back to learn & strengthen
    yourself.     God gives and he takes, but know this… that in
    the end, you shall have the best of the best of what’s the best for
    you. Others can only see a hopeless end. But we, the children of God
    shall rejoice in an endless hope.     I’ve trusted him for 21 years, and he’s given me
    alot… even the brightest starlight. Trust him! for beyond the
    sunshine sent to you, lies a way of blessing and peace.         The girl who spreads my
    sunshine – Starlight

    6th Hikari <Supreme> Saikou no Hikari ~ Zil
    Wow..
    remembering how everything was, I remember how we’d stay up late at
    night just so that you can sing “Wu ding.” Glad we share alot of
    interest in stuff. Don’t think anyone else would like to watch my anime
    and listen to my songs. hehe.. And after all this time, I feel like
    there’s more for us to discover. As of now It’s a little tough wor? But
    at least we’re more prepared I guess. Hehe… See? Even guys from the
    wedding dinner approached you. Gosh, a beauty indeed huh? hehe..
    anyways, hope to see you more in NUS, in my dreams & in my life.
    Soon, I shall give to you the greatest gift of all. But whether you’d
    want that gift depends on your choice. And that choice shall have great
    consequence. Trust me none the less, I’ll never do anything to hurt you
    ya? My supreme light, the one who brings me joy -
    Zil




October 10, 2004

  • “A week has gone by leaving me weary and distraught.
    And thankfully there were those who kept me smiling despite hard times.
    But alas, somehow there’s always a reason for me to sing.
    For me to dance & for me to be joyful.
    My heart seemed to be filled with contentment and assurance.
    And all these things came because if Him.
    For without Him, my place in this world would be but meaningless.

    There are those who feel emptiness in their hearts.
    There are even those with too much darkness and almost heartless.
    But today, I realise once more that in my heart…
    Is a light that shines as bright as the morning sun.
    There is a hope that never ends…
    And there is an invincible power in me that is tremendous…
    All because when I was just 13 years old,
    I felt the pressence of Him in me, by my side.

    “Did you not know I carried you through the storms?”
    I didn’t till then.
    “Do you know that your life has a purpose?”
    I had no answer to sustain.
    “Do you know that 10,000 may fall at your side but no harm shall come near u?”
    Now I know where I stand in His eyes.
    “Do you know that I am the King of Kings, and I love you”
    Everyday when I wake up, I know
    And thus, words of wisdom and power pour fourth into the mouths the youths,
    Thus the world was given another chance to bridge a gap between man and God.
    Thus did we have the power to overcome the power of death.
    And with this revealation nothing can hinder us from blessings and grace.

    The bible says,
    “I am the Truth, The Way and The Light”
    I say to all who read this,
    Know the truth…
    And the truth will set you free.”

    Ever gotten upclose with a Star?
    No it ain’t some bigshot, but at least its a reasonable good and popular singer.
    Never knew he was called Zhang Zi Chen…
    His singing isn’t that great…
    but he has great audience appeal and favour.
    Definitely humorous too!
    Another uprising star came along to at K-union,
    Her name’s Linda, and some songs she sang was pretty fine.
    Unfortunately, think she lacks experience.. but she should turn out fine. heh

    Fans seated on the floor waiting for his appearance, while i sit on the couch. hehe



    That’s the man… Actually, you’ll realise most Chinese singers are quite short. haha


    and that these singers are actually pretty much.. normal in person. haha



    I didn’t stay all the way though,
    found it a little boring. hehe…
    But anyway, that was definitely an experience in itself.
    Hearing stars singing on a Karoke mic…
    not as good as the CDs, but a test of their real talents.
    Alas, the week goes by so quickly again,
    And it’s back to lectures, assignments and labwork in NUS,



    Ok this picture looks wierd, but I
    was just trying to illustrate that my main man Paul here looks
    absolutely cool with this outfit. It’s simple, casual and definitely
    matching. It’s rare that he’s in one colour and all.. but everything
    matches man. Even the hair!

     


    Gosh I’ve been so busy lately with tests!
    It’s definitely no encouragement seeing that the average mean mark for
    the physics test was 11.4 upon 20 with a standard deviation of 4.95
    marks…
    And when the results for the other tests showed up,
    I felt a little demoralised again.
    And lately, the last physics test left me feeling angry.
    For that test, I had the capacity to do all the questions..
    but simply because i made the most hazardous careless mistake,
    I don’t expect to score well at all…
    It is a hard lesson to learn, but essentially beneficial too.
    And just now, I had a project discussion with….

    Paul’s Angels! *think Charlie’s Angels* Woohoo!

     All ready and geared for our discussion at…


    The esplanade library. Here’s a nice view.. and they’ve got a Piano practice room!!!



    You’ve gotta agree with me that they seemed to be *Someone’s* Angels…



    finally got down to some work.

    And I quote from Starlight,

    “    we were playing stupid games like “big fish small fish??” and “what?Huh?Pui!Aiyo!”

    so much of project.. hehs”

    but it was all good in the end.

    Came up with loads of arguments and stuff to do on.

    I’m going to love doing referencing on Manga, Film, Food and Bushido.


    Before the project, guess where we went? We went to this shop at the
    esplanade called “Popcornpop” If i can remember. It’s awesome! It has
    all the movie posters and cool stuff.




    B Here’s the Elvenstar and The One
    Ring! Pricy too.. but nice to look at.
    I bought a couple of stuff here too! And now, my room in PGP looks like…


    Isn’t
    it beautiful? It’s a poster of all the “Art pieces” from the Final
    Fantasy X museum thingie. It looks splendid, pasted on the linkway door
    in the room…


    And here’s dear Yuna in her sexy form in FFX-2. I really preffered her
    sweet look… but this poster’s just fine too. Covered over the ACS
    Flag that I pasted outside my window… so if you go to PGP, look out
    for a room with the flag! haha..


    And not forgetting my trusty old poster of the ideal couple.
    Squall Leonheart & Rinoa Heartily!
    I’m going to have Squall’s hair…
    my hairdresser said I’ll need to have longer hair first,
    So let’s wait! haha..

    All in all, everythings been getting better.
    And yes, there’s just 5 more weeks to our final exam.
    Despite this, I feel everything’s fine.
    Going to go for interviews for SCAMP committee positions.
    I wonder if I can cope being in Physics Society, Bizcom, and SCAMP.
    We’ll see how things goes…
    I will expect great things coming my way!
    Aside from my newly printed Physics Tutorials.. haha



    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story VIII>


    5th Hikari <Special> Hoshii no Hikari ~ Starlight
    You
    need to relive your childhood! There’s still time! And yes, I’ll
    promise to bring you to the places we mentioned.. I can be your little
    daddy, while you hop around with those squeeky shoes. haha… But none
    the less, don’t be afraid to do the things you want girl. The world’s a
    saa place because people bother too much about what others think.
    You’ve got nothing to lose! Just do it ya? I’ll support you all the
    way. Sorry bout the ghostly stuff. If you see one, call me k? I’ll
    bring my magical Badminton racket. haha! The girl who spreads my
    sunshine – Starlight

    6th Hikari <Supreme> Saikou no Hikari ~ Zil
    Thanks
    for always being there for me dear. This week was intense! I’ll give
    you 8 CCA points ok? haha… Don’t need to get too committed to RW CCA,
    cause I wouldn’t want you to get distracted from your tests and stuff.
    Really love your presence and all… It’s even cuter to see you
    secretly admiring yourself in the mirror when I thought you were
    watching Final Fantasy: Unlimited. haha.. But anyway, thanks for being
    so sweet to me. Sometimes I can’t believe that there’s a girl like you
    before me… It’s marvelously magical. The times, we poked at the Peach
    Apple Ice cream, or how we were discussing on how to share the ferrero
    Roche, and the times you simply smiled back at me… Rest assured and
    Trust me princess, and I’ll show you my world, the world and My Story.
    My supreme light, the one who brings me joy -
    Zil

September 29, 2004


  • “I said goodnight to my most precious Hikari,
    then as I reached to put my jacket on i realised it was gone.
    And its no surprise since it was simply hanging over my laptop carrying case.
    But as reality hit me hard, I began to break into a cold sweat.

    “That’s my $150 Adidas Jacket gone! “

    When she learnt about it, she offered to accompany me to backtrack our route.
    But I knew somehow that in the End I’ll get it back.

    “Not by might, nor by power, but by the spirit of God”

    And as those words whisper in my mind, I backtracked feeling eased and assured.
    After walking several distances, I observed crowds of people walking towards me.
    I thought to myself ,”someone must have taken it already”
    And it was definitely the devil’s work,
     for providing me with lots of empty cabs passing by.
    As time expired, every step I took brought more disappointment.
    And I was so ready to hail the cab and head back to my room.
    But just as I went to the side of the road to hail a cab,
    I distinctly sensed a prompting saying…

    “Don’t go now. It’s there. Trust me”

    I almost neglected that voice and went in the cab.
    But I didn’t and I went on.
    from a distance, lying beneath the light of a lampost, laid The Adidas Jacket.
    I ran and screamed Hallelujah all the way.
    And when I retrieved it, I looked to the heavens and felt his arms around me.
    Like the wings of the eagle I felt a familiar warmth embracing me.
    That’s the difference between me and the world.
    I can fly because of his wings.
    I can soar because of his guidance.
    I can take one step forward because I know i’m protected.
    And I can smile because I know…
     I’m greatly blessed, highly favoured & deeply loved”

    Monday was the day I played basketball for IFG.
    Man oh man, I’m old!!!
    I’ve not played for so long and I’ve gotten so rusty.
    I couldn’t last for like… erm 5 mins?


    That’s me totally shacked out. Was
    having a headache cause too much blood went away from my brain to my
    muscles… burst too much energy in impulses. ugh.

    I’ve gotta start getting back that stamina and drive…
    It’s sad that we lost, but the senior’s mentality and maturity really impressed me.
    In the end through this lost, we realised our mistakes and stuff…
    Think the next match against Arts faculty would be a little different
    Anyways, ever wondered how Reuben’s humble residence is like?
    sometimes I actually feel like i’m overseas and all, staying at PGP.
    And its actually quite fun! The freedom’s priceless!
    And the convenience! Sweet… waking up 10 mins before lecture’s sleek. heh


    hehe can you see my room? it’s one of the rooms visible here…

    Yeah Prince George Park Residence is awesome!
    A good place to study, watch people do strange stuff and even eat!
    Good thing is, it’s all quiet and very exquisite.
    Feels like I’m living in a foreign country or something…
    And the best part is, whenver I come back into my room I feel so…comfy!
    It’s almost a perfect place for me… if they included a Grand Piano I can play on.


    A typical lecture at PR1301… observing the acupoints of a male figurine…
    Now girls know where to poke to make men bow down to their bidding. Crafty.


    Sherrie and Chloe, best friends! Sherrie’s my ex classmate’s sister,
    and Chloe’s from ACJC. My my, somehow everyone I know are linked.
    Evidently true on Friendster.

    Some people think I don’t have a life anymore since I’m studying 6 days a week.
    Some have the impression that in every lecture I deligently pay attention.
    Well they’re right! I love learning new stuff! My interest sparks my enthusiasm!
    Alas, sometimes I can get bored.. and when that happens…


    You’ll see a 21 year old guy playing Mario RPG…


    Looking intentively at the laptop like he’s doing work…


    Only to give himself away when he suddenly laughs…
    And Reuben ain’t the only one that’s bored…


    I told Jane to “look after” my stuff, not “use” it to take pictures of
    pencils, erasers and this?? But actually this pics quite adorable. hahah

    And just as the week seemed like another ordinary one,
    full of test assignments, projects and stuff,
    Last night i went to see her dance at Jubilee hall!
    Studio Wu’s 2nd anniversary Dance drama, Stealing Soles.
    It was very increadible… and inspiring too!
    With a simple theme, and great dance choreography.
    In fact when I saw her dance, i was awed.
    She portrayed such a different image! and gosh she was luciously sexy…
    Her moves were so erm what’s that word? “nose-bleed-inducing!” hahaha
    But seriously well done ya? Make the last dance the best!


    You can’t know how its like by looking at this. You’ve gotta see those moves to believe it man! Studio Wu’s awesome! hahaha..

    And today I had a surprise!
    went to the shopping bazzar at the Science Foyer,
    And my my I didn’t expect to find any good stuff there.
    But I did
    Check this out!


    Doens’t this look great? it’s stuck on my wall in my room man. Love it!

    And yes, tmw’s a thursday..
    meaning I’ll be spending most of my time in the lab finishing up my lab reports and all.
    Wonder how tomorrow’s game will be.
    And it’s no encouragement knowing that I have a major physics test next mon.
    And that i’ve got a tutorial due on friday too.
    But in the end, I’m in good hands!
    Mwahaha, in the end, I shall emerge victorious.
    Finally, allow me to conclude this entry with this….


    Here’s Paul’s Shamy. I’d like to call her Pawpaw.

    If you’re experiencing an urge to scream “so cute!” or go “awww”, you’ve just been Pawed by Pawpaw. mwahaha

    *All pictures & images were proudly taken using Nokia’s 6230


September 22, 2004

  • “For two long years, I have been drifting in the world alone.
    God’s always there for me, to guide me too.
    But on the 22nd of Sept 2004, I am no longer alone.
    The hand I hold, and the smile that follows me shines as i walk.
    And with that lies a bright future that had begun from a humble beginning.
    No one knows how things may happen.
    No one can foresee what destiny has in store…
    But what matters is what you’re going to do, when that time comes.
    The Best If always Yet To Be.
    If you always seek to find the best, there will always be a better.
    In the end, you can’t measure what love is.
    It’s about choice, sacrifice and understanding.
    What you see now is flowers, pink colours, romantic magic and more.
    But in the end, when all these things fades…
    When all hope seems lost, and darkness consumes the once lighted fire,
    All that’s left is Love.
    And this power can overcome all those things, above all odds…
    If only you choose to know and to believe to hold on.
    In the End, no one can know what the future holds.
    You can only trust in what you believe in.
    As for me, I trust the Lord. “


    I came home on saturday afternoon and saw this…


    “Reuben save me!” says my ex-cupboard…

    And I went into my room to see 3 men creating my new cupboard.
    To be embodied with a huge glass sliding door,
    And a light blueish finish… I watched in temporary shock.


    I didn’t know how to react.. my cupboard of.. 11 years replaced by…

    So I went back to my old dear cupboard,
    Marvelled at its beauty despite its vandalised surface…
    And appreciated the stickers I placed on the surface.
    Every sticker represents a moment in time, and as i recalled,
    I could remember…
    I briefly looked as the words written by me across the front of the cupboard.
    it reads “The sky is the Limit, you should reach for the sky”
    That was the parting quote my principal in Anglo-Chinese Primary School gave.
    And that day when he left, the aged man streaked with hairs of wisdom, cried.
    At a young age, I could not understand.
    But now when I recalled, I could feel the spirit he had for the school.
    The passion, the unity and for what it stood for…
    One day I want to leave a quote for ALL to remember by too.


    The first game that brought me into the whole Final Fantasy Series

    Imagine the memories I had… So many hidden in one place…

    And now, I can finally utilise the space to…. hold all my stuff! hehe..

    And yes, the comics that made me who I am today. haha..

    Introducing… Paul’s hamster!
    Found desperately seeking a home, right in front of his doorstep,
    This hamster is definitely a brave one.
    Storming through the rain, the tall stairways, and finally the fiercesome cats,
    She managed to find her eternal love – Paul.
    It was love at first sight. His parents approved.
    And when I see them together now, I know it’s definitely a perfect match.


    Here’s looking at you!

    Look at it!!! She’s so cute!!! gosh.. i want one too…


    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story VII>

    Today I shall reorganise my Hikaris…
     see if you know anyone of them. hehe
    There is no rank! but they shall always be somewhat special to me
     (of course not as special as the Saikou no Hikari )
    Let me tell myself a story for me to remember
     and for the bold and curious alike.
    None of you may ever understand, the song and memory i have…

    1st Hikari ~ Miss Butterfly
    Do you remember
    that night? I spelt your name with shells and candles so bright? We
    were under the stars, under the skies, I would never forget… the
    magic I felt that night… The girl who showed me what light was – your
    name represents the butterfly.

    2nd Hikari ~ Kurei Su Teina
    So
    let me dream, this song I sing. To smile to, the joy you bring. To walk
    you until the end, I’d do anything. For you I’ll stand by your side
    today, for each and every other day, I’ll never leave you nor
    forget…. Why I… feel this… way…. The girl who was there for me
    over distance and time, while i was having my knee OP – You are Pure
    Dream.

    3rd Hikari ~ Keri
    A long time ago, I was
    on a journey to show you I can bring you happiness. Alas, you made that
    journey end. Yet a time later, you reveal your true feelings to me.
    Again, you were too late and it pains me to know that you cry. Please
    don’t cry for me, instead be strong.. not act strong. You never know
    what the future holds… None the less, I’ll always remember the
    concerts, the songs we sang & the times we had.
    The girl whose picture resides in my locket – The best singer I know in my heart.

    4th Hikari ~ Mil Lorac
    Teh-girl! Really glad that you play Final Fantasy, like magic, and play
    the piano! Almost like my identical or something. Always love to know
    we share common interest… And thus you are now a hikari! I will
    remember my neighbour as someone i can relate with. When we grow old,
    i’m going to  “Jio” you to play Final Fantasy VIIIX ya? The girl
    who impressed me – Teh Girl Reubina.

    5th Hikari <Special> Hoshii no Hikari ~ Starlight
    Yoz! like you
    said, we’re going to be good friends all the way ya? I’m glad someone
    can see the inner me the way i can see the real you. Yup, you can
    depend on me when you need me k? As long as I stand, I will never let
    you fall. Take care… till infinty and beyond! The girl who spreads my
    sunshine – Starlight

    6th Hikari <Supreme> Saikou no Hikari ~ Zil
    Special is a word I use to describe other people in a
    general context. But for you it means a totally different thing. I’m
    glad that you choice this path that we can take together ya? And as
    long as you’re willing, we can do this together. Trust me, and continue
    to trust me, and I assure you, you will see the real Reuben through
    your eyes, in my world. My supreme light, the one who brings me joy -
    Zil

    “The essence of someone’s
    soul revealed in the form of light. This light can only be observed by the
    chosen one (prince of solaria). different measures of light depict pureness,
    goodness and positive attributes that are rarely observed or made noticeable because
    of the person’s behaviour – Hikari. Absence of this light, implies darkness within the
    heart.”


    “Everyone has different intesities of light. Some are extremely
    bright, too eager to reach out to pple. Some are kept within, strong but kept
    secret. It is a inner spirit of the person’s true being, hidden from the eyes
    of the world.”

    ~Reuben’s XIIth report




    Indeed there can be only one… mwahaha





September 15, 2004

  • “In the middle of the Borders while exploring Morioka,
    I received a message saying that she’s parading at a roadshow.
    Suddenly I felt I had to cease what I was here for, to escape my purpose to see her
    But it would be irresponsible to just abandon my fellow explorers wouldn’t it?
    A little later as we left the Borders, I felt that I needed to go and see.
    With the others heading away first, I felt my adrenaline rush.
    I ran swiftly towards my destination, rather surprised at what I was doing.
    It’s been a long time since I’ve ran in anticipation.
    It’s been a long time since I’ve actually decided to abandon my temporary concerns,
    And when I got there to see the reason behind that drive,
    I felt pleased to know that I received a smile of appreciation.
    There I returned to continue my journey through Japan,
    Unknowingly satisfied, puzzled and yet please at the same time.”

    I changed.

    Someone who used to detest studying actually enjoy it now.

    I have learnt to appreciate the new knowledge i gain everyday.

    Perhaps it’s because I realised how powerful i can be when I have knowledge.

    I hope I’m learning new things because I simply want to know though,

    and not because I’m trying to fulfil a family dream of being the first graduate.
    Everyday at the lecture theatre, you’d probably see my desktop looking like this…


    A word document of my own compiled
    notes, my powerpoint presentation, my MSN and sometimes my mp3 player.
    hahaha.. but its all good

    Module code : GEK 1002, Introduction to Japanese Studies



    My knowledge about Japanese
    culture grew immensely! And it is so interesting to see how the
    Japanese used to behave and live in the past as opposed to today. From
    the Tokugawa Era, to the Meiji Restoration and reform of Japan…
    eveyrthing it’s simply amazing! Realised that the Japanese people are
    very unique. Eager to be true to their spirit of honour and bushido,
    yet determined to progress forward towards making Japan number one.
    Incredible…. hehe. Maybe next year I’ll go to Kyoshuu University for
    the Student Exchange Programme too! Anyone interested as well? hehe

    Module code : IT 1001, Introduction to Computing

    I didn’t know what a bit was until I took this module. Didn’t
    know that a modem actually means MOdulator and DEModulator, and that a
    pentium chip were actually many tiny transitors. Didn’t know that there
    were a competition of Operating systems of IBM’s O/S2, Mac OS and
    MS-Dos. The good thing is.. i finally know that defragmentation doesn’t
    give you more memory… but actually increases the overall performance
    of the head reading speed on your hard drive.

    Module code: PR 1301 , Contemporary Medicine and Health



    Did you know certain essential oils actually have adverse effects on pregnant women? Or that Ginseng acts on the CNS (central nervous system), cardiovascular and
    endocrine system (system of secretion) promotes immune function and metabolism
    and has bio-modulation (to control and modulate body functions) and anti-stress
    activities? Or tha    t ginkgo biloba gives symptomatic treatment of cerebral dysfunction (symptoms:
    difficulty in memory, dizziness,
    tinnitus, headaches, emotional instability and anxiety? I think
    whatever I’ve learnt can finally prove to my mum that Chinese Medicine
    isn’t really THAT dependable. hahaha… but please don’t read this and
    go tell you mum that Reuben Wong says Chinese medicine is bad. haha

    Core Modules code : PC 1141, PC 1142, Physics I and II



    It’s interesting to see that when a candle moves in a direction
    the flame actually points in the same direction of the motion! as
    opposed to the common thinking that the air will push against the flame
    and make it point in the opposite direction. Have you ever considered
    why airplanes never fly in straight lines to their destination? My dad
    used to tell me its because the winds are strong so they must move at
    an angle against the force of the wind to move in curves. Ah… now I
    REALLY know why.. hahaha consider an non-inertial frame of the rotating
    world and the plane moving independantly from the earth’s fram of
    reference! then you’ll get the idea And
    when the assignments and lab work comes.. gosh, I burn almost…. 12
    hours a week of class and labs, and many many hours of doing an
    assignment or report. But… it’s fun. Because I love physics… though
    its tough, and challenging.. i like it!

    Special Module Code: RW 4216, The Art and concepts of Crapping



    Ever wondered how certain textual descriptions can sound so
    profound and professional when you actually begin to realise that it is
    just crap? Then this is the module you need – Critically devised by Dr.
    Reuben Wong, Phd. Final Fantasy (Square-Enix University), MGA (Masters
    of Gunbound), BSc T.C.O (Tactical counter-strike operations) and BSc
    (Sleep Research). His research in this field had gained global
    recognition
    and had propelled the socialogy and psychological arena in Singapore to
    greater heights. Some of his books are “Learning the linguistic art of
    english through gaming,” and “Why I got an A for literature with just 3
    pages of answers.” An example of his fine work comes from an abtract
    adapted from a project he managed. Consider the Dr. Reuben’s discussion on an abtract,

    “This
    work conveys the author’s ideology as to what is important in preserving the
    Japanese and the way they govern themselves. It also displays the author’s
    attempt to unify Western and Japanese culture and practices into a common
    frame, striking balance in both aspects. However, we question the motive of why
    the book was written, that is if it was a sincere appreciation of Japanese
    culture or an attempt to convince the general reader that his optimism for
    western influence is holistically for the benefit of     Japan’s progress.“

    another follows,
    “Our group shall examine the modus operandi of how this system works, and what this could do to
    the technological arena in companies all over the world, regarding sales and
    even in the service sectors. Here we shall establish the advantages of this
    system as compared to mainstream techniques used and the potential political
    consequences that may arise.”


    To
    apply for this module
    there are certain criterias cited by the professor himself. Please
    refer to clause 1012 in section VI of the Student’s Special Programme
    Annex, stating that “whoever so takes up this position to further
    explore the art of crapping, must first run 21km and reflect on whether
    the mind allows the body to feel tired, or whether the body causes the
    mind to think that it is tired. Only then can one fully appreciate the
    many perceptions of a given topic that will allow one to discuss
    critically in a crappy yet convincingly professional way.”

    Thankfully my time in NUS isn’t just all study!
    I always have fun everyday! hahaha…


    Right outside my room, I can see the
    whole of King edward Hall! Get to see girls walking around, couples
    arguing.. couples doing erm, other stuff… people doing strange things
    and more often than not, seeing people still studying at 4am.


    More Rag Photos! Got this from NUSSU’s collection. haha…

    The Prince of Solaria rises again! hahaha..

    The guys who kidnapped my princess,
    casted stop on me and finally gave me a pat on my back. Thanks for everything guys!

    Secret Pal game at Union Camp. Wahaha remembered how noisy it was.

    The union camp at full force in 2004! Eh.. but Science camp was better.
    SCAMP 2004! The rest are just camps. hehe

    More Union ball pictures from NUSSU! wow..

    Wow… looking good Liz! Your partner’s a lucky guy. haha

    So which do you think’s the prettiest? hehe..

    It was quite well done.. the union ball. heh.. and the girls looked great.



    My time in the National University of Singapore…
    While many see the end of the orientation activities as the end of fun,
    I believe that there are greater things coming my way.
    More cheers, cries of victory, satisfied smiles and forging of new bonds.
    May the world know that this… is only the beginning.
    This is MY beginning, and I shall see through it.
    Thank you Lord for everything…

    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story VI>



    8th Hikari ~ Zil

    I only have one thing
    to say. Thanks for seeing me. It made me smile for the longest time,
    and made me glad for the nicest moments. It is here i realise that
    though I can’t see you that often, it is in these moments that my
    memories live. And perhaps it shall be here, that these memories will grow

    To the rest of the “Hikari” ~
    Keri, Mis Adnama, Kureisuteina, Butterfly and Blue Rose
    and to White Star and Lonestar… The moments we had, or the dreams
    that had faded… I will never forget them. Sometimes certain things
    are meant to be forgotten but some should be remembered. Keri… let’s
    see what the future holds.




September 6, 2004

  • “As we entered the ballroom,
    I caught a glimps of her flirting with me.
    Remembering where she waited,
    I patiently looked for the right time.
    When the food started to get uninteresting,
     I intentively excused myself to the gents.
    There I walked confidently, anxiously and excited.
    We were at one corner of a wide open space…
    I was amazed at what I saw when I removed her cloth,
    As I gently touched the tenderness of her edges,
    I could feel experience, hidden wonders and  captivation.
    As my hands begin to flow in motion…
    I was taken away into another world.
    My body swayed in motion as I played with her,
    And when I opened my eyes, I couldn’t believe it was this good.
    Outside the ballroom of Suntect Ball room,
    Lies my 2nd best experience I ever had.
    There I played the Ending theme of Final Fantasy X,
    There I played all the songs of my soul.
    Incredible..
    The Black Old Grand Piano of Suntec”

    Wow, had a wonderful weekend…

    Seems that every saturday I’ve got some ball or party.

    Ugh.. but anyway, we met at Carol’s house before leaving for suntec!

    Gosh her place is huge… like a mansion.

    And her puppies are so adorable!! Wish I could have one though..

    But my mum’s asthmatic, so it’s better not to eh?


    She was snuggling on the bed! Couldn’t take the other 2 though.. so hyper

    And now we begin our journey to the Science Dinner and Dance!
    There’s Pammy, Carol “my Teh girl”, Shumei one of the hikari and Matthew..
    Matthew is the HON GEN SEC for 1st SGMC.

    Haha it was quite good fun squeezing princes and princesses into one Cefiro.
    Benny was really nice to send us there too. Thanks bruda.
    Haha, we thought we were going to be late,
    and I thought I was going to be too formal wearing a coat and tie.
    Alas, when we got there… erm, I didn’t want to look so stern!
    So i took off my tie, unbuttoned my shirt, added the Lionheart and kazaam!
    You’ve got Reuben Wong reloaded! erm… yeah.


    That’s moi and “my teh girl” Carol! haha she looks great man..

    Shumei, she looks really cute and sweet but, play badminton with her then u’ll know

    Woohoo! Pretty isn’t she? She’s a dear Fran of mine. Loads of guys wooing her…

    Aren’t they pretty? 2 great girls by my side. Feels like a privilege man.

    My princess from Rag Dance! And that’s Matthew (guy with cool laptop case)

    Terence and Benny. THe brothers with THE answers man. awesome dudes

    Pammy! She looks REALLY cool here. Incredible la!

    The Science Rag Dancers… the bestest bunch of people man. heh

    Princess Pyronia and Prince Solaria???

    Me and Victor.. we share good taste.. haha.

    Actually I attended this function because everyone from Rag’s going.
    Plus really there to just lend my support to the pageant guys.
    I think they did a great job! More importantly they had a great experience.
    As long as it’s worth remembering I’m sure everything’s worth the effort.
    Great job guys! Really looked great in the outfits!
    Half way through, they had this lucky draw thing to give out…
    Where they’ll randomly read out names gathered from the tickets bought to enter.
    Prizes seemed a little boring so i didn’t pay much attention to it…
    Then the Emcee announced something like he hopes the next person to win
    the next prize is a girl…. because the prize is a “Cup A silicon Bra!”
    haha sounds amusing eh? I was thinking “haha it’ll be fun to see who gets it”
    Then i heard Sharon speaking through the mic…

    “Oh my God, it’s REUBEN!”



    I broke out in laughter… and so did everyone in the ballroom 
    haha was great fun! Now I need to find someone to give this to. hmmm.. haha


    Looks Obscene right? hahaha gosh…

    Didn’t know they have stuff like this for girls.. lol

    And after all this, it was time to go back home.
    We wanted to go somewhere to chill, but couldn’t think of a place…
    So in the end, everyone just slept and waited to get back to their comfy beds.


    It’s funny how girls like to smile when they sleep. haha


    And as days go by…
    I ended up back in NUS even on sunday. haha
    The week’s going to be packed too!
    Well thankfully bizcom stuff’s almost settled too…
    spent yesterday putting up the banners..


    That’s Paul and John.. going their obscene act again.. haha

    Can you believe this was hand painted? Looks great huh? Check it out at Arts.


    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story IV>

    8th Hikari ~ Zil

    Hey!
    Was great having dinner with you again! Sorry to let you wait though..
    But anyway, really glad you stayed a little longer to meet me. Feel bad
    you have to sleep so late and get up so early.. Shouldn’t get too
    stressed about everything k? I’m sure with the right attitude and time
    management you’ll pull through. Remember? Try to win Reuben
    scholarship… then I’ll go for your scholarship
    Anyways, hope to see ya around again. Always nice seeing ya… btw you
    look nicer with your natural eye colour. Fits into the sweet nature
    that you have. See ya this thursday! Take care~

    What happens when Reuben’s busy….

    Before…

    After….

    Before….

    After…

    Oh well… another day in the life of Reuben Wong in NUS





September 3, 2004

  • “Something perculiar happened.
    As I sat down in my room, and looks into blank space.
    I saw flashes of my memories passing me.
    So many. Too many. Increadible.
    I felt like i’ve just watched a movie.
    Except it’s a wonderful movie.


    There was me, getting into fights, merciless and cold blooded,
    making people cry at my feet, swinging that punch.
    There was me not wanting to let my grandma go, on my first day of school
    There was me playing basketball, never exhausted, fully charged,
    me singing in the choir, stealing time to play the piano.
    There was me flying in mid-air, spinning 720 degress on my bike as i crashed.
    There was me kissing my first girl friend at a young age.
    There was me doing Long jump, watching the crowd applaud,
    pointing my hand to the air, screaming as I saw my school flag raised
    There was me,at the telephone booth,  telling my girl to come out her window.
    There was me at the beach in OBS sabah, spending a magical night with her.
    There was me on crutches after my knee operation, having people visiting me.
    There were my bros, coming down to see me as i was depressed, late at night.
    There was a time I sang a song I composed for her on Christmas, her birthday
    And there were people I’ve met who made such a difference.
    The friends I made, the bonds I had…
    There was me, collapsing as I did my last and final long Jump, only to receive the trophy as i was lying in the Sick Bay…
    There was me, singing live in orchard..
    And there was me singing in church, hearing Angels singing with me

    And here I am now, having it good continuing in another phase of life.
    Here I shall make a new way, pave a new way, and conquer another place.
    My hopes, aspirations and legacy shall continue in NUS.
    Here I’ve met the dearest and most wonderful people.
    Alex Tang ~ The first leader in SCAMP i met. You have earned my respect
    Benny Ng ~ A caring and considerate person who never fails to touch me.
    Charles ~ Someone who’s equally emotionally sensitive. A rare friend to find.
    Timothy ~ This army storeman who’s in my unit, now someone I know better
    Junji ~ Too good to be true guy, he’s the ultimate gentleman… to girls.
    Liling ~ A girl with enthusiasm and willingness to try. She is a great example.
    Valerie Heng ~ Someone adorable and complex who made me feel very comfortable.
    Wei Sheun ~ Once a quite schoolmate, now displaying great leadership and sensibility
    Eunice Lim ~ An annointed girl with a spirit of preaching.
    Peng Tat ~ A sportsman with an artistic mind. Reminds me of myself.. haha
    Peter ~ A leader who is driven by his very passion
    Matthew ~ Helpful, encouraging and humorous, the veggie porn guy. hahaha
    Wenyan ~ Fun loving, realistic and ambitious young man.
    Xiaoyuan ~ Increadibly earnest and humble, her charisma outshines most girls
    Terence ~ sharing similar ideologies, this guy’s awesome la.
    Pamela Wong ~ funloving girl as well. Sensible too, worthy to be my sister. hahaha
    Shumei ~ There is too much goodness in her that many cannot see…
    Dexter ~ Straightforward and passionate guy. I’ll dub him AA battery. always at gym
    Victor ~ Macho guy who’s sensitive nature shines from within
    Jason ~ Tall guy who like jumping and touching the ceiling. hahaha.. awesome guy

    Frances Tho ~ Sensible, adventurous and friendly. Devastating combination
    Carol ~ An extremely lovely girl. You’ve gotta know her before u get charmed away.
    Dawn ~ Cheer up girl! God will guide ya all the way! hehe
    Grace ~ My church friend…. so cute, but can be volatile and voilent. haha
    Haze ~ Cool girl with matured sense of thought
    Sin Chang ~ Earnest guy who treasures friendship very well
    Jebsen ~ This “damn gay” guy from ACJC. Glad to know u better bro. respect ya
    Amanda ~  Finally found you. Adorable girl with prob much more than meets the eye

    Liz Yeo ~ Your smiles enough to brighten anyone man! Love being with her…

    Kelly ~ I never ever thought u’d think that way about me. I’m very touched….

    Goodness me..that’s a whole lot of text man.
    Didn’t expect to get so much stuff.
    Haha, anyways, days had been going swell!
    And I love my new hair. hehe..


    That’s module PR1301, with Chloe at LT25. That’s my new hair!

    At the union ball, the 2nd most beautiful piano I’ve ever played on…

    This Joker bear tried to get attention by driving with balloons…

    That’s Sherrie, mich’s sista. Can you see my streaks? haha Ash brown!


    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story III>

    8th Hikari ~ Zil

    I had such a great time with you that night. Though it was just a little while,

    But seeing your smile was enough to speak words to me. it’s an honour being in your presence. Sometimes you don’t have to say anything, cause being around ya is satisfying enough. As we walked back, I knew it’d be difficult to see ya again. Everyone’s so busy… But anyway, as long as you’re still taking GEK1002,

    I’ll still see you! hahaha… I’ll be there at your performance. Just to see ya.

    The 3rd Hikari ~ Keri

    It
    was great seeing ya again, after all this time…. You’ve looked a
    little different, but you’re pretty much the same. Somehow I feel older
    know that we’ve met. And I do feel that I’ve been silly to miss that
    chance long time ago. Was rather surprised about what you said as you
    took the bus past my camp. That was the first time I heard you include
    the word “like” and “you” together. But I was really pleased to have
    seen you again. There’s so much to catch up on. hehe… take care ya?
    Maybe someday we’ll fly together!



August 30, 2004

  • What happens when you go to yahoo and search for “Reuben Wong”?


    Things you never knew about me..
    http://www.osce-arf.de/Participants/reuben.html
    I am a genius and I’m 31 years old…

    http://otakuworld.com/games/index.html?/games/saturn/sfz.htm

    I contributed to codes in gaming websites (which is actually true)


    “Within the brightest of lights,
    Illuminate and shadow the darkness.
    For the stronger the light, the bigger the dark shadow.
    A mirror reflects oneself,
    True in nature, devoid in thought.
    For many try to conceal what they are not.
    Darkness is a vile thing seeking to consumate those who possess it.
    Giving temporary victory to those who are deceived,
    Bringing demise to those who foolishly believe…
    For with it, comes great power…
    But because of it comes great consequence.
    For Darkness is the absence of light,
    Darkness is ignorance of the Truth.
    Greater power comes to those who know they have power.
    And it is greater to walk by the light,
    To be set free from the Truth…
    Follow the light, and leave your darkness buried”

    Days had been getting busier man.
    Horrible lab results didn’t make my life easier too..
    Can’t believe that I’ve spent ages and aeons trying to solve physics questions.
    And sometimes over dinner, the solution will come to me in 5 mins.
    But that’s the love of the subject…
    Though it’s so difficult, you won’t give up doing it, because… you love it

    Perhaps the only thing that’s “happening” is the union ball!
    One of the few times we get to see a spectacle of princes and princesses
     waltzing around taking pictures with each other…
    But this time, it was held in conjunction with the Student’s Union anniversary.
    Where minister Mr. Vivian something something came as a VIP.
    He was talking about finding love while in NUS,
    But i doubted most people were listening..
    Was annoyed to find other people yaking away when there’s a speech going on!
    Respect the man man! hahaha..
    Well he said that it was important and healthy to find love while in NUS,
    and I felt that this speech was somewhat meant for my ears…

    Well thought it was a great speech,
    and they even had fireworks display in the ballroom,
    and the food was much better as compared to the prom at ACJC,
    I preferred the Grand Piano outside the ballroom..
    It seems that it has a voice that calls out my name.
    Thus I went to it, played it.. and never stopped..
    Didn’t care if people looked or whatever,
    but that was the 2nd piano in my whole life that i consider… “Beautiful”
    It had depth yet softness, and every note reflected the soul of the song.
    The best Piano is one that can reflect the pianist intentions..
    and that piano did very well for me. I love it!!!
    Forgotten what model or brand it was though… ugh.

    After the ball, the guys got a room at Ritz to spend the night.
    But Haze was tempting the guys to go KTV with her friends…
    Everyone was going on bout how they paid to stay, and it would be silly to go ktv.
    I didn’t think so.
    Man, had great fun singing all those chinese songs again!
    Been so long since I sang like that.
    More importantly, I could practice different techniques and all. hehe
    And after that it was back to sleep at home.
    Anyways, gotta go meet up with Kelly!
    I’ve missed her for soo long!
    It’s about time i finally get to see her.. and show her my new hair too!
    hahaha…. as for everythin else in my life.
    All is fine with my world! woohoo!!


    The Ballroom. Awaiting all the Royalties of NUS… in their suits and dresses

    But with his new Ash Brown 2 toned highlighted and layered hair…

    He doesn’t care if Brandon’s wearing a Black Suit…

    Or if Sin Chang’s wearing a hat thingie…

    Or if Jerry thinks the camera can eat veggies…

    Cause in the end, I’m happy with the way i am. Wenyan too! happy 21st Birthday!

    introducing the princesses… Liz! Such an angel!
    She’s like me… not what we seem to be. mwahaha

    And here’s Shamantha, one of the 6 “hikari”

    Then It’s back to the resting area…
    where everyone explores and plays with their new sponsered toys. haha..

    There was another picture I wanted to put, but i think she’d rather i not. heh

    <Special Secret Ending: Another Side Another Story II>


    The 7th Hikari – Mis Adnama


    I searched for you since the day union camp ended…
    But I couldn’t find you.
    Was hoping to get a reply through the email,
    but u never ticked “yes”
    Then one day I met you on the bus,
    And finally I knew your name.
    It was an honour knowing you…
    Whether or not you’re good or bad girl,
    It doesn’t matter because…
    I will never regret knowing you.
    There’s a pleasant sense of happiness knowing you more…
    And that’s what I’ll do.
    Unknown to many, I enjoy your company.
    It’s strange how I feel there’s something common we share,
    yet beyond simplicity i sense a more complex person behind who i see.
    In any case, perhaps the most memoreable part of us,
    Is the night where it was just you and me laughing and enjoying the night.
    Seems silly but to me, it was a very lovely memory…

    The 3rd Hikari -  Keri
    It was such a great thing to see you again.
    I’ve not seen you for so long, and seeing you brings back memories.
    Still remembered clearly how I’d see you home,
    and watch you as you sleep.
    Or how I’d get the support of everyone regarding you.
    And when you sang, I was mesmorized.
    I’m sorry I was insensitive when you messaged me at Seletar Camp.
    Maybe I could have phrased it better.
    None the less, I’m really glad that I actually meant something to you.
    I’m sorry i couldn’t tell, because I was convinced it was over.
    Now as i recall, i thank you for that high regard.. Thank you.

    The 8th Hikari – Zil

    It’s odd how I tried to add you on friendster,
    But you were already in my list of friends.
    It’s even more strange how a simple introduction from a friend,
    could lead to today.
    Knowing you is a joy! And you reflect much of myself in many aspects.
    It’s rare to find pple who are not what they seem,
    and for you, beyond that adorable face is also a nice heart.
    The smile and effect you leave, gives everyone happiness,
    And the atmosphere you create always leaves the guys breathless.
    It is my pleasure knowing you.
    To me, you’ll always be Miss NUS.



    Wonder what else is coming my way…

August 26, 2004

  • The Real Me..


    I can change the way I talk to you,

    I can stop giving you things and sweet messages too.

    I can even be your friend and even stop liking you.

    But there’s nothing you or I can do,

     To stop me from loving you..

    Just one day of thinking about all these left me so… distraught.
    But today I woke up, seeing things in a new light.
    I prayed last night and in my dreams I had a revealation.
    I saw myself in my most intense basketball match.
    I remembered that day years ago, when our team was losing by 14 points.
    And the opponent needed to score just one more point to win the game round.
    Back then I was mortified and discouraged at first…
    But i bucked up and decided to play my best even if we’re going to lose.
    In the end, we won…

    When I woke up I realise what God’s been saying.
    “No matter how hard the fight, know where you stand and finish the race”
    My race is not over… Even as friends things may change.
    Even with the slightest possibilities…
    Now I see who I really am.
    Someone once saw me yesterday, in my distraught and hopeless look,
    and she said,
    “You’re not Reuben Wong. The Reuben I know takes on ALL challenges”
    She’s right. Yesterday I thought everything ended.
    Alas, it is only but part of a new beginning.
    Whether as friends, or whatever…
    There really isn’t any end unless you yourself declares it.


    If i gave up now.
    It’ll mean everything I’ve done was not worth continuing.
    People can tell me this.
    They can gossip and say that.
    In the end, even if it seems there’s no road left.
    I will make my own way, with God’s grace and favour.
    I can do all things…
    …through Christ..