November 15, 2004

• I walked to the centre of the field in NUS,
  
  Feeling the breeze against my hair...
  
  There I raised my White Wing high up into the air,
  
  And with one single stroke, I released it into its brilliant motion.
  
  What is it I hear?
  
  
  
  I heard the echoes of music reaching my ear as it spins,
  
  I heard the children laughing and playing.
  
  I heard the ruffles in the trees, and the sound of silence.
  
  Yet finally I hear the danger approaching before me.
  
  
  
  I'd used to run and duck away till it fell,
  
  To pick it up again and throw again.
  
  Yet today I was ready to take that step forward,
  
  To reach out to my Wing and retreive if as my own.
  
  Alas, the winds were strong and I wasn't as fast...
  
  Eventually left to see, my White Wing fall to the Grass.
  
  
  
  Like all things, some things do not go as planned.
  
  Sometimes these things leave you to believe that there's nothing more.
  
  Yet I believe that my God wants me to believe that,
  
  when you fall, you should still stand..
  
  Because you've gotta keep trying till the very End.
  
  
  
  
  

  
  
  One day...
   I know that I will be able to catch my Wing,
  Some day,
  
  I hope I'll see the ones I love catch theirs too"

  ---

  
  

  Finally all that's left for me is to study!
  no more assignments and projects!
  But of all of these experiences, there's one I treasure the most.
  Taking Japanese Studies (GEK 1002) made an impact on my life.
  If God didn't place me there, I would not have experienced so many things.
  There I met a group of Angels..
  I shall name them "Paul's Angels" cause Paul's so nice to them????
  haha and perhaps if you combine these words u get, Pangels!
  Anyways, it was great to be in their company.
  We've been through tough times, and because of that I've made dear friends.
  Most importantly, through certain situations, I've come to see another light,
  One that spreads my sunshine, the brightest star of them all...

  
  Our project involves the exploration of LAN gaming in the library...
  

  

  Another day of "Jelly Beans" research.. haha. The girls are soooo adorable!
  

  
   Starry said this is nice.. it's made up of Rice! At Serangoon Gardens Country Club
  

  
  
  

  Man It doesn't stop there!
  Through this Module I've fallen into bliss.
  Never thought that I'd feel this way again,
  But more importantly, I feel it in a more mature and sensible way.
  It isn't that simple actually...
  It's about being realistic, and practical and being true to your heart.
  More often than not, all these would clash and cause major judgemental errros.
  But here I am, all cool about it, knowing what i'm doing and trusting God.
  I think that's how a relationship should be...
  Not just based on emotion and sudden surges of feelings..
  but rather based on mutual understanding, agreement, and realistic applications.
  
  I hope God can help me do what I have to do in her life.
  That way, can we really level up together

  
  It's almost like the picture above. hehe..

  Anyways on less serious stuff aside...
  I've made a few signs outside my door,
  So that my neighbours know when to knock and disturb me and when not to.
  hahaha.. cause sometimes I'm sleeping and they think I'm still up!
  can't blame them though.. so I created these signs!

  

  
  

  The latest gaming trend to hit me, is Dota.
  Can't believe that I converted to Warcraft III Based stratedgy games...
  I've always been a Counter-striker.
  alas, ever since I came into NUS, I've lost my touch in CS,
  LEaving me no choice but to succumb to the nightly games the scholars play in NUS LAN.
  But it's quite fun actually! hahah using Heros to force a consistent force to the base.
  And strangely there are pple playing CS 1.5 here (An older version),
  and wierdly, I can't play the latest version online in NUS!
  The latency's ridiculously high! (1800+) when at home it's just 15.
  Ugh...

  ---

  And now for even less serious stuff,
  That's probably more redundent to pple who are not interested...
  Behold! New high resolution pictures and preview to the next CG movie!
  
  Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children!
  
  

  
  Such dull colours... haiz, it's a sad story essentially.
  

  
  I forgot this character's name.. ugh..
  

  
  Tifa! A girl who loves someone who loves someone else.. sigh
  

  
  who can forget Cid? The guys who flies the Airship "Highwind"
  

  
  The main character "Cloud Strife" and "Tifa Lockheart (I think)"...
  

  
  The Turks...
  

  
  Close up... aw... the girl looks pretty... reminds me of someone.

  
  Hmm his Sword looks rather different too. Nice hair eh? If i had this style...

  And aside from these new trailer pictures,
  There is..,
  
  Kingdom Hearts II.
  This game is a collaberation between Japan's top leading Role-Playing Game Producer, Square-Enix and Walt Disney.
  I thought it'll be some childish game that's just for kids
  (since there are disney characters in it too) and so I didn't pay much attention to it.
  Until I had sooo much time in the Army that I decided to get it.
  And true enough Squaresoft did not let me down.
  
  The plot's incredible, and the story line's captivating...
  The cool thing is that it's original, and you barely understand the whole pic,
  even when u finish the game.
  Like what the the scientist Ansem said...
  
  "One who knows nothing, can understand... Nothing."

  
  I always thought no one can reproduce 2D cartoons into 3D and still keep the effect.
  

  
  There's King Mickey! but it seems like he's with the baddies.. hmm
  

  
  Isn't it incredible? It's a 3D game, but somehow u feel like u're in the cartoon...
  

  
  Hercules reappears in KH2! After being defeated by Sora.. hah
  

  
  Looks like a Scene from the Lord of the Rings eh? hehe...
  

  
  

  And here's something not many have access to,
  In Kingdom Hearts: Final Mix, here's the missing reports translated to English...
  Not available in Singapore or the US, this is the missing link between
  Kingdom Hearts and the secret trailer to Kingdom Hearts II.
  Actually I highly encourage those who can appreciate the arts, to play this game.
  Cause it makes simple things like darkness and light become so interestingly intridging,
  Here are all the reports of Ansem ( A scientist in the game)
  that a player would slowly discover as he progresses in the game...,

  ---

  The 13 Ansem Reports
   
  
  Report 1
  

  Much of my life has been dedicated to pursuit of knowledge. That
  knowledge has guarded this world well.
  Not a soul doubts that. I am
  blessed with people's smiles and respect.

  But though I am called a sage, there are things I do not understand. I
  believe darkness sleeps in every heart, no matter how pure. Given
  the chance, the smallest drop can spread and swallow the heart. I have
  witnessed it many times.

  Darkness...

  Darkness of the heart.

  How is it born? How does it come to affect us so? As ruler of this world, I must find the answers.

  I must find them before the world is lost to those taken by the darkness.
  
  
  
  

  Report 2
  
  
  

  It is my duty to expose what this darkness really is.
  
  
  I shall conduct the following experiments.
  
  
  Extract the darkness from a person's heart. Cultivate darkness in a pure heart. Both suppress and amplify the darkness within.
  
  
  The experiments caused the test subjects' hearts to collapse, including the most stalwart. How fragile our hearts are!
  
  
  My treatment produced no signs of recovery.
  
  
  I confined those who had completely lost their hearts beneath the castle.
  
  
  Some time later, I went below and was greeted by the strangest sight.
  
  
  Creatures that seemed to be born of darkness...
  
  
  What are they? Are they truly sentient beings? Could they be the shadows of those who lost their hearts in my experiments?
  
  

  
  Report 3
  

  The shadows that crawl beneath the castle... Are they the people who
  lost their hearts, or incarnations of darkness? Or something
  entirely beyond my imagination?

  All my knowledge has provided no answer. One thing I am sure of is that
  they are entirely devoid of emotion. Perhaps further study will
  unlock the mysteries of the heart. Fortunately, there is no shortage of
  test samples.

  They are multiplying underground even as I write this report. They still need a name.

  Those who lack hearts... I will call them the Heartless.
  
  
  
  

  Report 4
  
  
  
  The Heartless appear in groups, and are multiplying rapidly. I've
  provided them both living and nonliving samples. They've responded
  only to the living. They seem to multiply after absorbing something
  from the living creatures. Their prey vanishes without a trace.
  
  
  I believe the Heartless are taking hearts. They are born from those
  who've lost their hearts, and thrive on hearts seized from others.
  The hearts taken by the heartless become Heartless themselves.
  
  
  Though I lack proof, I am confident in this hypothesis. I must also study their behavioral principles.
  
  
  Though they lack emotions, they do seem to have some intelligence. How to communicate with them?
  
  
  It's just occurred to me: Could they be the darkness in people's hearts?
  
  

  
  Report 5
  

  To study the Heartless behavior, I picked one out for observation. It
  wiggled its antennae and, as if sensing a target, headed deep into
  the castle.

  In the deepest part of the castle, its antennae began vibrating, as if
  searching for something. Suddenly, a strange door appeared.
  I'd never known of its existence.

  It had a large keyhole, but didn't seem to be locked. So I opened the door.

  What I saw on the other side mystified me.

  What was that powerful mass of energy. That night I observed a great meteor shower in the sky.

  Could it be related to the door that I have opened?

  Report 6
  
  
  
  A massive core of energy lay beyond the door sought by the Heartless.
  It may be the ultimate goal of the Heartless. But what is that
  energy? I have devised a hypothesis, based upon my observations of the
  Heartless.
  
  
  The Heartless feed on other's hearts, and they yearn for that energy
  core. That thing beyond the door must be a heart, too--the heart of
  this world. There is no proof, but, having felt that immense energy, I
  am certain. That was the heart of the world.
  
  
  The Heartless are trying to take hearts not only from all living
  creatures, but from the planet itself. But what do they mean to do with
  the heart of the world?
  
  

  
  Report 7
  
  I am studying material from the meteors that rained down that
  fateful night. What a find! The material is foreign to our world. It is
  elastic to the touch, and when two pieces are combined, they bond
  easily.

  None of the records even mention such a substance. Was it introduced to
  this world when I opened the door? I wonder how many other such
  materials drift through the atmosphere of this tiny world... I wish I
  could soar off and find out!

  Could there be uncharted worlds up there? My curiosity never ceases to
  grow. But I should stop speaking of such unrealistic dreams. For
  now, there is no way to venture outside this world. My people and I are
  all but prisoners of this tiny place.

  Report 8
  
  
  There is no doubt that the Heartless are deeply connected to
  the people's hearts. Further study may unravel both their motivations
  and
  the mysteries shrouding the heart. As a start, I have built a device
  that artificially creates Heartless.
  
  
  By recreating the conditions that spawn the Heartless naturally, I
  should be able to produce them artificially. This device is the
  culmination of all my research thus far. The machine's test run
  successfully created a Heartless. This may be a step toward creating a
  heart from nothing.
  
  
  The artificially and naturally created Heartless showed nearly
  identical traits. But the two types remain distinct for the purpose of
  the experiment. So, I will mark the ones that are created artificially.
  
  

  
  Report 9
  
  Simply astonishing! Today I had a guest from another world. He
  is a king, and his vessel is built of the material that composed the
  meteors. He called the pieces "gummi blocks." It seemed that my opening
  the door has opened a path to interworld travel.

  We talked for countless hours, but one story in particular caught my
  interest: that of a key called the "Keyblade." The Keyblade is said
  to hold phenomenal power. One legend says its wielder saved the world,
  while another says that he wrought chaos and ruin upon it.

  I must know what this Keyblade is. A key opens doors. It must be connected to the door I have opened.

  Report 10
  
  
  
  Just as people have hearts, so do worlds. The same can be said of stars
  in the night sky. And deep within each world lies a door to its
  heart. The Heartless desire those hearts. Born out of darkness in
  people's hearts, they seek to return to a greater heart. Yes that's it.
  The Heartless come from people's hearts, as does the darkness.
  
  
  Is the core of the world's heart the world of the Heartless? I will
  pursue the answer there and become all knowing. My path is set.
  I shall seek out the wielder of the Keyblade, and the princesses.
  
  
  My body is too frail for such a journey, but I most do this.
  
  
  I will cast it off and plunge into the depths of darkness.
  
  

  
  Report 11
  

  In opening the door that stores a world's hearts, the wall around that world is broken down. We see this as a shooting star.
  Through this, I have been able to understand the reason why the material known as Gummi Blocks has the ability to allow travel
  to other worlds.

  The cause of a world's wall collapsing is the appearance of the
  Heartless, but finding a world's door takes time. And robbing a world
  of
  its heart is a similar case.

  If the door has been closed by the key known as the Keyblade, you
  probably cannot reach that world's heart again. Before the one with
  the Keyblade appears in this world, I must take measures to do
  something.

  Supposing that there is a close relationship between the Princesses and
  the Keyblade, it seems likely that they will resonate with each
  other...

  I have chosen one special girl. I do not know if she possesses a power
  like that of the Princesses. But, there is a chance, and this is
  an experiment. She may lead me to the place where the one holding the
  key is...

  I shall send her off to the ocean of other worlds.

  Report 12
  
  
  

  I have transcended to an existence of only the heart. I should have come back as a Heartless, but there is no sign of such a
  transformation.
  
  
  My body has surely perished. However, I am different from the other
  Heartless, keeping the memories of before, and I have not taken on
  the form of a Heartless. It is clear that there are still many things
  to be studied.
  
  
  In order to cross over to the dark side, which is not this world, you
  must go beyond the door of Kingdom Hearts, the place connected to
  the world's heart.
  
  
  The innermost part connected to the world's heart, the place connecting
  to the world of darkness. (I will record the details in another
  report...)
  
  
  There are still so many unknown worlds.

  The present world.
  
  
  The world of darkness.
  
  
  The world of light.
  
  

  And,
  
  
  The world in-between.

  Where does the true paradise lie, I wonder?
  
  

  
  

  Report 13
  

  When the heart casts off the flesh, where does the body go?

  Heart and soul are separate, and the soul remains in the body. But can we assume that the leftover body and soul perish?

  Certainly when the heart changes into a Heartless the body disappears.

  However, that is only this world's story; in another world, mightn't they change forms like the Heartless and exist there?

  If we take that to be the case, there must be a you other than yourself existing somewhere.

  An existence neither of darkness nor of light.

  An in-between existence. Cast off by the heart, a mere shell, one who begrudges both the darkness and the light.

  This mystery cannot be easily resolved. The relationship between the heart and the flesh is a complex one.

  But since we exist here, they cannot be termed as existent.Therefore I shall call them...

  "The non-existent ones.

  ---

  
  

   
  Oh wells, that's that...
  With the exams coming up next,
  There's nothing left to do but study and study!
  Hope I'll be able to pull this off.
  Must aim for the sky! beyond my limit is where I shall be satisfied!
  
  

  
  <Special Secret Ending: Another Side, Another Story X>

  
  

  5th Hikari <Special> Hoshii no Hikari ~ Starlight
  God's
  gift to me in the most perculiar way! Never thought I'd got to know you
  through NUS. Could have known you earlier a year back, but I think it
  wouldn't be the same if it had turned out that way. Hey, be strong and
  stay strong ya? Challenges will keep coming your way, and It'll be hard
  to get by. But don't fear, cause the Lord's with ya all the way. I can
  vouch for that... And he won't let you have the 2nd best, he'll give
  you the best! You just have to press on and trust him for now ya?
  Someday I know you'll be able to catch your wings, and reach your
  goals. That's the time for you to realise that it is true - That
  because you are a child of God, you shall be and always will be the
  brightest of them all.  The girl who spreads my
  sunshine - Starlight
  
  
  6th Hikari <Supreme> Saikou no Hikari ~ Zil
  My
  dear. It's been a long time since I've used that word... but now I'm
  using it often because of you. Nothing can replace the satisfaction I
  have whenever you are near. It's so pleasing to know that there's
  someone like you in my life. Thanks for everything! But more
  importantly, don't hesitate in whatever you do. Do be honest with me,
  and just tell me whatever you feel. Hope your gidiness is gone.. was
  kinda worried about you just now. Dear, I'm looking forward to what our
  future holds for us ya? For now, let us focus on our exams! after that,
  when the holidays come... that's when the real romance shall commence.
  Mwahahaha... then you'll go into full-time RW CCA mode. hehe... My supreme light, the one who brings me joy -
  Zil

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